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maria

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Well I'll make it as short as possible well I will try. Well 2.5 yrs ago I ended up getting pregnant. I was doing good with my uc it was under control because I was taking balzalaside. I went to the Drs at about 27 weeks. My Dr came in and said are you still taking that medication (Balzalaside) I said yes. He Paniked and was like how dare you!! Your baby is gonna have heart problems and now possibly be a stillborn. I freaked. I was so scared. I told the dr no one told me this. I've told this everytime I came here for my checkup and he never said a thing. I told the Dr once I stop taking this I could get very sick. He said no. The only way I could get sick is if I not take care of myself. I stressed to him exactly whats gonna happen. I Don't think he believed me. I was sent to a specialist and basically was told if I don't continue with this medication I either lose my life or my colon. I begged for 1 more week to get to the safe point of if they had to take baby out she would have a fighting chance. Dr wasnt too happy with my decision as he wanted me to start asap.

I was a single mother of 3 kids my husband and I separated and I started seeing this guy who now that I found out I was pregnant didnt think he was the father( crazy because he was 32 you would expect some maturity but not the case) So I was on my own at this point. My boys father was very active and involved in their life so I was blessed with that. So I immediatly stoped the medication and Right away as I thought my symptoms coming strong. Bleeding,cramps,losing weight,pain. It was a night mare within 1 week my body was the total opposite it was. I was in trouble So I went back to the Dr and he was clueless and I know he thought it was in my head but I could easily on call bleed up to a cup at any given time.

Another Dr gave me 50 oxy pain pills and at the time I wasnt into taking medication while pregnant especially after what I was told. For the next week I lay in bed just staring at the bottle just talking myself into taking just one for any sort of relief. One day the pain was so bad it was so horrible I was rolling around, Bleeding cupfuls of blood like every 3-4 hours. It was a place I never want to be ever again.I ended up taking 2 of those oxy pills. IT didnt work one bit! I called the dr and I had just finished crying so I was trying to not sound like I had been crying but as soon as I heard the Drs voice I just balled I couldnt take it anymore. He said go sraight to the hospital he will be waiting for me. SO I did. They had everything waiting for me. They had a pain pump and had my balsalazide waiting for my by the bed. A doctor Ill never forget came and sat right next to me and touched my leg and said honey I get what your trying to do but I've read your chart you have 3 boys and they need you. What is going to happen to them if your not here. I understand you want to protect your unborn but my job is to protect you. He said that if my baby comes now he will fight with all his might to save her That I have his word. So I said ok I'll take them he's right. So I did. Within I'd say 10 hours my pain was very low and I was calm. It was AMAZING.

I stayed there for a week During this time I had a lot of contractions. They said they can send me home with the same meds I was taking and buy some time with baby. So I agreed and went home with my prescription. I went and filled them and decided I would stop at walmart to buy some pants Because I had gained some weight in the hospital. So I was in the checkout and my water broke.. So I drove myself home and dropped my stuff off and to tell my mom Because she was watching my kids that my water broke and I have to go back to the hospital. So I got back in my car and had to stop and pump gas, SUCKED! I was In pain!! But I got back in the car and did a prayer because I wasnt sure If I could finish driving cuz of how I felt. I did a prayer and heard this lady on a radio station she said some of the most amazing words it felt like she was just talking to me. Her name was Savannah. I gathered my strength and finished my drive. I went in and they checked me out and sure enough waters was broke and he said by the looks of it it had been broken for a while. I was so scared! I called a friend and couldnt get a hold of her so I thought I would call the babies father to see if he wanted to be there. He came right away. Shocking to me.

Well at 34 weeks by c-section I had my first baby girl named Savannah Gracelynn on July 4th. She was Shockingly very healthy for everything that had happen. She did have to spend a week in nicu for gerd. Well when we got out of the hospital the babies father asked If I wanted to stay at his house he could help take care of the baby while I rested. I thought it was very sweet and took him up on his offer. We stayed for about a week but I felt a little tension because I have 3 other kids and he had a son and dogs that to be honest wasnt very well behaved and 2 guy roomates. So I thought I just needed to go home. I packed my stuff and went home that night we started texting. He asked me if he could take the baby for 3 days I wasnt to comfertable with that because I was breast feeding and being away from my newborn for 3 whole days seemed weird to me. I didn't respond to his request right away and he took it very wrong and out of the blue calling me every bad name in the book. I was shocked and immediatly said no. He kept up with the text for aprox 3 days then I changed my phone number.

I ended up having to take the baby to er Because she was having some breathing problems and they kept her for a few days and let us go home. I decided to walk to the store with my baby in the stroller also I had to fill her medication. I was on my way back and this green car pulled along side of me out of passenger side steped the babies father and his mother got out of the drivers side. The mother reaches out to give me a hug and and holds me tight I wasnt sure why but then she whispered in my ear that she will let me see her I was confused and thought I heard wrong I said what then she said I will let you see her. I pushed my body away from hers and turned and the father of the baby had taken the baby out of the stroller and said we are taking the baby! I started freaking out. He put a paper down on the stroller and they both were walking away. I called the police. I was freaking out. My boys were crying hysterically. I have a very close nti community and everyone just basically stoped. I had no clue as to what the heck and why.

The police came and I thought they were obviously going to give her back to me they said they can't. I begged, pleaded it was horrible the worst experience that I don't wish on any mother. That night was so horrible I couldnt sleep my breast were engourged with milk. I was 3 weeks out from my cesection. My mind was racing I had no clue. The next morning I went to the court house I paid so much money for advice and help and for the packets. I walked To EVERY Attorney begging for help. They did and I managed to get a court order to get her back. In the midst of this all I got a text from the father asking if I wanted to see her. I said yes. He said come to my mothers house. So I thought I had this paper saying she has to stay with me. I wasnt sure how well this would go but cops wouldnt help me. I pulled up to his house and I say there was about 50 people standing in the front yard. I was very confused people were all around this house. All the windows, doors, garage doors were opened.

Thses people looked like if I was to hold her and not give her back would have hurt me and knew it was going bad. So I got scared. So I walked up and called for the babies father to come over and I handed him my court order. Suddenly he ran and EVERYone scattered like ants away. All the windows,doors,garage door shut. I was just shocked.. like I was dreaming. Then my babies father's mother came out and handed me a packet and I pushed it back and said why are you doing this? your a mother?! Why would you do this to me. she pushed the papers back at me and I said no why?! Mothers shouldnt do this to other mothers?! She then put the packet on my windsheild of my car. at this point I was so hurt I tried giving her my paper as she walked away from me. Then my daughers father came out and started video taping me. I asked why is he doing this to me. I said he didnt have permission to video tape me. He didnt say anything to me so tried to hand him some of the paperwork that I had he wouldnt take it and he ran in the garage door as it closed I tried running to him and I couldnt run my body wouldnt allow it from cesection. So I threw the papers I don't know why I did that I just did.. The papers went everywhere.. They opened the garage door again and the babies father continued video taping me. I walked back to my car and called the police. I asked the police dispatcher if I could get some help I told him what happen and he asked if I was stupid to go back and pick up the paper work. I said I couldnt because the paper work went EVERY WHERE and half is in the garage. He started yelling at me so I just hung up and drove off. I got the paper work off my windshield when I got home and read it.

The father went to the court and got custody saying that I abused my medication and that I was too sick to care for an infant. He had my medical information it was weird to me. I went to my Dr and when they check you in they verify address and phone number. They gave me a different address and phone number which happen to be the babies fathers. I said what the heck why do you have this number how and why did you change it the receptionist said your husband did. I was like MY husband?? I asked what my husbands name was she told me my daughters father and I said thats not my husband. I asked what info did they give him she got her supervisor becuase she was confused so I asked for everything that was discussed with my "Husband" she said she can't tell me but they can mail me what they mailed to the address he gave.

So I signed all the papers and the next few days I got ALLLLLL my medical record from my whole life. It was all sent to him. I was furious. I got so angry I went to the dr and yelled at him. I signed a hippa law paper for my health info not to be shared and they gve everything to this guy and he used it against me without my knowing and got temp custody of my daughter. It was statrting to make sense to me. So eventoully we went back to court and he accused me of harming the baby with prescription drugs due to breastfeeding her( the oxy the dr prescribed to me) The Commisioner told me I wasnt allowed to breast feed her. I presented the commisioner of his very long list of criminal charges that are very scary I wont even get into it but the only thing the commisioner said was I'm glad your not my neighbor to the babies father. The babies father stressed to the commisioner how I was a bad person with NO proof whatsoever. I know the father has an anger problem ( the reason I stoped dating him ) a drinking and criminal problems. He parties all the time. I've seen him hurt people for no reason. I've seen him seek horrible revenge on people that make him mad. And still The commisioner gave us 50/50. Very shocking to me.

Since then he has tried to scare me with guns, yelling, verbally abusing me telling me his plan is to have me dead,he knows what I do. If I have concerns about our daughterhe threatens me and says you know what this will lead to, you losing your child. He follows me and watches what I do. One time I went to a bar (first time in 9 months at this point) it was aprox 8:30 and I was suppose to pick up my boys from their uncles house at 10 so I was in the area and didnt think anything I just needed to kill time I stoped at a local bar with a friend and DID not drink beer but I sipped on water suddenly I got tons of text saying how I choose the bar over my child and hes sitting in the parking lot with my daughter watching me took pictures of my car and that I'm a bad parent and guess what this means it means court again and that I'm not gonna see the baby. He filed contempt for that and I didnt get held into contempt but the same commisioner told me I needed to step it up and If I ever go to a bar again I will lose my baby. I was devasted because thats not the type of person I am. He and his mother and sister in law drive past my house all the time and take pictures of my house. I tried getting a restraining order but the same commisioner wouldn't allow it.

I really did eventually get sick and ended up having to have my colon removed. The first time I was in the hsopital he did have to care for her. I posted on my facebook to a friend of mine in seattle because he just bought a cafe downtown and I posted on his wall and said I'm on the look out for the best chili intown. Next thing I know I got served with court papers The babies father said I was supposdly sick and I'm asking and driving to seattle to eat and If I as really sick I wouldnt do that. He tried holding me in contempt for that. He was denied for it and the same commisioner shook his head at me and again said I really need to be a better mother. I said I take care of 3 boys very well and I'm doing the best I can or something along those lines and he he got mad at me for that. And told me That soon he will give the father control over her medical. At this point I'm just flabbergasted. Every one that knows me is beyond shocked at the rulings and doesnt undertsand. I've hired lawyers and even the lawyers are stumped it makes no sense. When he has my daughter he doesn't even take care of her he gives her to people to take care of her .

Mostly his mother and ex girlfriend and current ones. My daugther has came to me with bruises, breathing problems because he smokes around her and she was a preeemie and has breathing problems, she has anger problems and has called me a bitch right when coming from his house. Her fingers has been cracked. I had to take her to the er right when I got her because her fingers were bent and when I touched them she cried. The most recent is somehow her arm was pulled out of socket. The babies father asked for his current g/f and his mother to take her in. Advised them to use a different name. LUckily my aunt happen to be at the er that night and seen the grandmother the girlfriend and the fathers sister crying my aunt called me and I was out of town dealing with trying to get my reversal. and told me I need to get here asap something is going on. I immediatly called the babys father and got no answer. I texted him and nothing. I called the hospital and the drs were like I have a child here but My info doesnt match the info I was giving them. I demanded to talk to the supervisor and just got the runaround.

Finally got someone that said they cant give me any info but will transfer me to the room. The 15 yr old (the babies fathers sister) answered and said Savannahs arm is pulled out of socket and was saying something else and then we got disconnected. I called the hsopital back and told them what I knew. I got very upset the doctor said I really dont know whats going on but as far as she knew the mother was in the room with her and my info doesnt match what was given. But she will say that her arm went back into socket and that she's not crying so thats good... Turns out they used different name so I wouldn't find out...For the 3 weeks I tried obtaining the medical records and also asking the father. Also learning that he has been driving with a suspended license due to a recent dui and and he even went to jail. While Savannah was in his care. I got no answers from him besides sarcastic ones. I felt I needed to keep my daughter to protect her until I figure out what was going on. So I Had to have my surgery in seattle not too many people knew about it. I went. My daughter and boys were safe.

I did tell him that I needed some time and need to figure something out. Well I went and had my surgery and right when I got out I was in the recovery room I heard someone say I can't believe he did this I cant believe he came all this way to serve you papers at a time like this. I opened my eyes and seen him and a female walking away. I asked a nurse to read what they had givin me and it was court papers and a card that read: I'm sorry to say so but sadly it's true that bang-ups and hang-ups can happen to you..on the inside it said hope your burdens are feeling lighter and each day brighter. and they also left a balloon that said thank you. I came back home a week later and my friend caught him behind some bushes in a car watching my house.. he got scared and found another spot and sat there cuz another neigbor seen him.. then about 2 hours later I looked out my window and he was walking in the park across my street. I just called the police.. The police came about 2 hours later. I told them that since I have been in the hospital hes been trying to talk to my 8 yr olds teacher.

Waiting for him to get home( Luckily I didnt send him to school that day) trying to and finally got a hold of my landlord.. sitting outside my house. I told him that I had already been served in the hospital and would like him to stop because I just can't deal with this right now. The police told me that he had called at the same time I called and told the police he was scared of me. The officer said he cant take sides but said he has known me for years and there is nothing scary about me and he said that I need to get a protection order asap because he can ask him to leave me alone all he wants but it's like talking to a wall. I understood because I have been dealing with this for the past 2 yrs. I was so weak after this surgery. I couldnt move at all. but I had just a few days to go to court.

I hired a lawyer and got more time. I have since went to court with all the evidence that I had like him getting her vaccinations at wrong time periods under different names and not telling me and she got double dosed and Just everything.. the commisioner said I had to give the baby to him and do the 50/50 but she is not holding me in contempt. I am sitting here and just thinking and wondering why they wont protect me and allow this person to taunt me and abuse me from afar and able to do it with something that is so precious to me. I will never understand. The most important person this is afecting is Savannah and that hurts. I just dont know what to do.
 
So sorry you have so many troubles and really hope the future will be kinder to you
Feel better soon
Hugs and best wishes
Trysha
 
Such a nasty toxic situation Maria. My sister had milder issues with a drunk for a husband. We got a private detective to follow him and gather evidence, and a good lawyer. The courts favor 50/50 custody most of the time, so you need some strong evidence against him.
You are doing your best, and I hope you can look after your health. When Savannah is older she will make the right decisions for herself. Life is tough, and you are too. I hope you have a friend or family member to lean on.
Hang in there.
 
Good lord, what a nightmare for you!...:hug::hug::hug:

I don't know what to advise hun as I have never been in this situation and I am not familiar with the legal in the US.

I do hope more than anything though that you are able to secure the services of someone that can help and a judge that is sympathetic to your cause!

Sending you loads of love, luck and well wishes!

Dusty. :heart:

PS. In view of the amount of personal information provided I think it best that I move this away from the open forum and into the members section.
 
If you signed the HIPAA form giving yourself sole access to your medical information and this man was able to obtain this information from them AND change your personal information without your knowledge then the practice was grossly negligent and can be sued. That is illegal and should have never been admissible in court if he used it against you to take your child from you.

This link will tell you how to file a complaint about the medical practice that released your information without your consent.

I'm really sorry about the hard times you've been having. I hope it can be resolved soon.
 
Thank you guys very much. I Just don't know what to do anymore. I did make a complaint and the dr that gave the information was let go. My brother also mentioned hiring a private detective. My next move is to go higher. Not sure how but I will figure it out soon. I'm up for any advise:)
 
I'm so sorry for what is happening to you, that must be terrible. You are a strong person to endure all of this, a strength that only a mother can have. I really wish you reunite with Savannah soon. *hug*
 

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