Day 15 LDN, April 7, 2023
1.5mg taken upon waking on an empty stomach.
The LDN has a profound effect on my mood. I've always been prone to Bipolar 2-like mood swings which occur over the span of about a week. I've never been formally diagnosed, but pretty much met all the clinical markers for Bipolar 2 in my teens and twenties. Several days of despair, followed by 1-2 days of euphoria that didn't quite reach full-blown mania. As I age into my 30s, these mood swings have continued, but have become much more subtle.
The LDN seems to recreate these mood swings, but over a scale of 12 hours, rather than a scale of 1 week. For a few hours I will feel a small amount of fogginess or despair (anhedonia), and then the anhedonia rebounds and I feel en energetic micro-mania/euphoria. I must say that the despair is very difficult to endure, and if I didn't have a meditation practice, the despair might even be very dangerous. But for me, I get through the couple hours of despair with mindfulness knowing that it will end.
The rebound effect will feel both energetic and euphoric, with one of those feelings being dominant depending the overal feeling-tone of my day. Yesterday the rebound effect was very energetic and I was able to do some extremely productive programming work in the evening (very hard for me to code in the evening usually). Today the rebound effect is extremely euphoric, and I feel a great sense of calm and wellbeing.
Note: it seems like when I take the LDN on an empty stomach, the anhedonia is almost undetectable (presents as a mild nausea and tiredness), and the rebound euphoria occurs less than an hour after dosing. When I take LDN with food (as I did yesterday), the anhedonia happens about 5 hours after dosing and lasts for about 2 hours, and the rebound euphoria happens about 10 hours after dosing. Definitely prefer empty stomach dosing!!!
I have the intuitve sense that these rebound periods of euphoria-energy are what induce mucosal healing in the gut, and the magic of LDN is that it produces this euphoria in the body on a consistent daily schedule. That's also why it would, in theory, take a few months to resolve physical UC symptoms. Can't wait for my August bloodwork to compare with the bloodwork I got a couple days ago!!