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Elle-GaGa
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Hi there 
I really don't know where to start but I guess I should desribe my life, and where I started!
My name is Elle, Im 16 years old and am currently sitting my GCSE's in school I was born in Bristol into a family of 2 loving parents and 2 loving brothers. I don't remember much about my childhood in Bristol, but I know I was a normal out going kid who did everything everybody else did.
We then moved in 1999 (when i was 10) down to sunny old Devon! When we first moved down I was happy and made friends very quickly, I felt at home! As I got older, I started to change. I woudn't leave the house as much, only for school, I started to distance myself from everyone around me and began self harming. My mum took me to the doctor and they simply said I was growing up and becoming a teenager! I was left alone and got on with my life by myself, Everyone at school and my friends found out about what was going on, and I then got bullied for a very long time. I kept it quite and just put on a happy face.
Just after my 14th birthday, I started to rebel, I got my first boyfriend and started to drink and smoke. I didn't get on in school and was getting bullied so badly i refused to go to school. I got referred to counsellers and started talking about my feelings and what was going on in my head. I hated myself and wanted to die, I thought I was fat and ugly and no body liked me.... But I got help and battled on with my life and WAS happy.
On the 8th March, I was rushed to hospital with apendisitis (not sure on spelling sorry) I was in the operating theatre within hours and was home within days. I got all this attention and people where caring for me and visiting me, I felt loved!
The months went on and on, It got to june, I wasn't any better, I lost a few pounds and that was normal, It was the begining of the summer holiday and I just wanted to die. I got depressed and hated myself again. My mum thought I was just rebelling again, and carried on like normal!
It got to September, and before I knew it I was back in school starting year 11. I was so scared and everyday I couldnt understand what was happening I was lossing weight, Being sick, chronic diarrhea, pain in my stomach. I thought I had a virus and my told my mum, she didnt beleive me and sent me to school anyway thinking it was just me being bullied again but it wasnt. I stopped eating as much because I was scared that it would come up or pass through me too quickly... I just wanted to be normal and knew if i cutted down on food.... People in school wouldnt know anything was wrong.
A month later I was just the same, not any better and started to see my doctor and got referred back to torbay hospital. They stared investigating.... it took months and alot of tests, and they still couldnt find anything! They started investigating Anerexia, as I wasnt eating properly, which was proven wrong as I only lost about 5 pounds and would still eat just not as much!
My birthday came around on Novemeber the 9th, I was still unwell and couldn't celerbrate my 16th brithday, as i was in hospital again. I was then in and out of hospital untill the end of december with various blood tests and other samples. I then went in for a barrimeal and a colonoscopy in January of this year, My crohns disease was confirmed near enough 10 minutes after I woke up..... When the doctor said it my heart sinked and I felt fisically sick! Almost a year of suffering all coming down to this! I didn't really care and thought everything would just get better!
2 weeks after my diagnoses, I went in for a Infliximab infusion, Which I now have every 8 weeks, I don't think it makes a difference and feel just as depressed and down as ever!
I thought this was the end of my problems, But when I was confirmed with crohns I stopped eating like i did before. I was 9 stone 10 and now just over 7 stone, I am starting treatment at health clinic and with the hopsital because crohns disease has given me an eating disorder, I am now scared to eat because of I couldnt keep anything in me when I started to get unwell.
A few weeks later, I was due a period, i missed it.... I thought it was because of the massive weight loss.... I then went on to miss 3 periods, and am still awaiting another appointment with my doctor at torbay hospital to discuss other problems. I am dreading it.... because I think I know what they are going to say! but I guess there is still a chance for it all to be down to my weight loss Fingers crossed
When my GCSE's started at school, I got my head down and tried to carry on with my life although all this was happening, A friend over heard me telling my head of year about my crohns and decided to tell her friends. Obviously the news spread fast and I was being bullied again. I was being made fun of for going to the toilet or skipping a meal. I then got removed from school and now only go in for my GCSE's!
Things are looking better for me, I am going to study at south devon college, and prove all those who bullied me and disbeleived me wrong! I will get better and will lead a normal life
Although Ive gone through a lot, Im still a fighter and will never let anything get the best of me, I might still be lossing weight and feeling depressed but I just look at all the positive things.... A loving mother and a loving brother thats all i need.... There are my rock, and i love them to peices!
Thank you for reading my story of my life
Sorry for the essay lol
take care all
Elle xo
I really don't know where to start but I guess I should desribe my life, and where I started!
My name is Elle, Im 16 years old and am currently sitting my GCSE's in school
I was born in Bristol into a family of 2 loving parents and 2 loving brothers. I don't remember much about my childhood in Bristol, but I know I was a normal out going kid who did everything everybody else did. We then moved in 1999 (when i was 10) down to sunny old Devon! When we first moved down I was happy and made friends very quickly, I felt at home! As I got older, I started to change. I woudn't leave the house as much, only for school, I started to distance myself from everyone around me and began self harming. My mum took me to the doctor and they simply said I was growing up and becoming a teenager! I was left alone and got on with my life by myself, Everyone at school and my friends found out about what was going on, and I then got bullied for a very long time. I kept it quite and just put on a happy face.
Just after my 14th birthday, I started to rebel, I got my first boyfriend and started to drink and smoke. I didn't get on in school and was getting bullied so badly i refused to go to school. I got referred to counsellers and started talking about my feelings and what was going on in my head. I hated myself and wanted to die, I thought I was fat and ugly and no body liked me.... But I got help and battled on with my life and WAS happy.
On the 8th March, I was rushed to hospital with apendisitis (not sure on spelling sorry) I was in the operating theatre within hours and was home within days. I got all this attention and people where caring for me and visiting me, I felt loved!
The months went on and on, It got to june, I wasn't any better, I lost a few pounds and that was normal, It was the begining of the summer holiday and I just wanted to die. I got depressed and hated myself again. My mum thought I was just rebelling again, and carried on like normal!
It got to September, and before I knew it I was back in school starting year 11. I was so scared and everyday I couldnt understand what was happening I was lossing weight, Being sick, chronic diarrhea, pain in my stomach. I thought I had a virus and my told my mum, she didnt beleive me and sent me to school anyway thinking it was just me being bullied again but it wasnt. I stopped eating as much because I was scared that it would come up or pass through me too quickly... I just wanted to be normal and knew if i cutted down on food.... People in school wouldnt know anything was wrong.
A month later I was just the same, not any better and started to see my doctor and got referred back to torbay hospital. They stared investigating.... it took months and alot of tests, and they still couldnt find anything! They started investigating Anerexia, as I wasnt eating properly, which was proven wrong as I only lost about 5 pounds and would still eat just not as much!
My birthday came around on Novemeber the 9th, I was still unwell and couldn't celerbrate my 16th brithday, as i was in hospital again. I was then in and out of hospital untill the end of december with various blood tests and other samples. I then went in for a barrimeal and a colonoscopy in January of this year, My crohns disease was confirmed near enough 10 minutes after I woke up..... When the doctor said it my heart sinked and I felt fisically sick! Almost a year of suffering all coming down to this! I didn't really care and thought everything would just get better!
2 weeks after my diagnoses, I went in for a Infliximab infusion, Which I now have every 8 weeks, I don't think it makes a difference and feel just as depressed and down as ever!
I thought this was the end of my problems, But when I was confirmed with crohns I stopped eating like i did before. I was 9 stone 10 and now just over 7 stone, I am starting treatment at health clinic and with the hopsital because crohns disease has given me an eating disorder, I am now scared to eat because of I couldnt keep anything in me when I started to get unwell.
A few weeks later, I was due a period, i missed it.... I thought it was because of the massive weight loss.... I then went on to miss 3 periods, and am still awaiting another appointment with my doctor at torbay hospital to discuss other problems. I am dreading it.... because I think I know what they are going to say! but I guess there is still a chance for it all to be down to my weight loss
Fingers crossed When my GCSE's started at school, I got my head down and tried to carry on with my life although all this was happening, A friend over heard me telling my head of year about my crohns and decided to tell her friends. Obviously the news spread fast and I was being bullied again. I was being made fun of for going to the toilet or skipping a meal. I then got removed from school and now only go in for my GCSE's!
Things are looking better for me, I am going to study at south devon college, and prove all those who bullied me and disbeleived me wrong! I will get better and will lead a normal life
Although Ive gone through a lot, Im still a fighter and will never let anything get the best of me, I might still be lossing weight and feeling depressed but I just look at all the positive things.... A loving mother and a loving brother
thats all i need.... There are my rock, and i love them to peices!Thank you for reading my story of my life
Sorry for the essay lol
take care all
Elle xo
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