Wow, I almost can't believe it's been a year. Some days it feels so frustratingly new, yet other day I feel like I've had my Stoma forever. I think one thing I miss a little is the newspaper! Yes, I used to get to read the paper as I spent so much time in the loo that I could finish the whole thing before lunch. Now I only sit to pee I have no idea what is happening in the world.
If you'd have asked me a year ago what today looked like I would have really struggled to find a positive answer. I was scared, depressed, in pain and almost catatonic with fear. There were days I could not even speak as I thought if I opened my mouth I would start bawling. It was definitely not a good way to be when you have three beautiful children to look after. I could not begin to grasp the concept of how I might survive, even thrive with my life after the surgery.
I am really pleased to say that, while there are times I hate my 'miss piggy', I have the utmost respect for her and the freedom that she has afforded me. I no longer stress about how far away a toilet is, worry that my bottom my leak blood/ pus/ poo that I couldn't see. I love being back at work. I have been away on a few overnight business trips and survived. I've been to concerts and shared a hotel room with 5 others. I've swam, run, flown, sunbathed, fished, drank alcohol and ate food that I've avoided up until the Stoma. It's not always great. There were healing issues, skin problems, a few blockages, some embarrassing leaks and spills not to mention the putrid gas and output which at time have made me blush and gag. But things do seem to sorted themselves out ( well mostly)
I struggled with intimacy with my husband until one night when he told me how brave I was and how much healthier I had become we both cried that night. I have energy to do things I hadn't done in years. He told me he loved miss piggy for the freedom she gave me/ us/ our family. If he could love it, why couldn't I. Paul is a fantastic husband and father and the whole time I thought I was repulsive yet he loved me and thought I was beautiful. I am becoming more comfortable with myself, and I'm sure this will get better with time.
Miss piggy is for life, I had a panproctocolectomy, so were going to be together for a long time. I just hope the next 50 years are going to be as good as the last 6 months have been.
Sorry, I just got carried away, but I hope that my post will help someone who is feeling like I was a year ago.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS PIGGY thank you for improving my quality of life so much.
Janette xx:wine::bdayparty:
If you'd have asked me a year ago what today looked like I would have really struggled to find a positive answer. I was scared, depressed, in pain and almost catatonic with fear. There were days I could not even speak as I thought if I opened my mouth I would start bawling. It was definitely not a good way to be when you have three beautiful children to look after. I could not begin to grasp the concept of how I might survive, even thrive with my life after the surgery.
I am really pleased to say that, while there are times I hate my 'miss piggy', I have the utmost respect for her and the freedom that she has afforded me. I no longer stress about how far away a toilet is, worry that my bottom my leak blood/ pus/ poo that I couldn't see. I love being back at work. I have been away on a few overnight business trips and survived. I've been to concerts and shared a hotel room with 5 others. I've swam, run, flown, sunbathed, fished, drank alcohol and ate food that I've avoided up until the Stoma. It's not always great. There were healing issues, skin problems, a few blockages, some embarrassing leaks and spills not to mention the putrid gas and output which at time have made me blush and gag. But things do seem to sorted themselves out ( well mostly)
I struggled with intimacy with my husband until one night when he told me how brave I was and how much healthier I had become we both cried that night. I have energy to do things I hadn't done in years. He told me he loved miss piggy for the freedom she gave me/ us/ our family. If he could love it, why couldn't I. Paul is a fantastic husband and father and the whole time I thought I was repulsive yet he loved me and thought I was beautiful. I am becoming more comfortable with myself, and I'm sure this will get better with time.
Miss piggy is for life, I had a panproctocolectomy, so were going to be together for a long time. I just hope the next 50 years are going to be as good as the last 6 months have been.
Sorry, I just got carried away, but I hope that my post will help someone who is feeling like I was a year ago.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS PIGGY thank you for improving my quality of life so much.
Janette xx:wine::bdayparty:
such a positive story, yet keeping it real! Happy birthday to Miss piggy!!
