Nervous about tomorrow

[shazz]

I get my biopsy results from my last colonoscopy tomorrow.
This will hopefully either confirm or rule out Crohns.
I am really quite nervous about it as I dont know what to expect
Also, am going to sound a bit nuts now!! I am worried they will say I dont have Crohns and will then put me forward for surgery.
On the other hand I am worried that they will say I do have Crohns and they will want me to take more drugs or 'see how I go' without any drugs. Been there done that. Ended up in hospital last time, really dont want to go there again.
Really dont want drugs either. Hate taking tablets at the best of times but when I keep having really bad allergic reactions to what they give me, it scares me to take anything else.
Really really dont want surgery but have to face the fact that it might be the oly thing that will give me a semblance of a life back again.
My lovely hubby has, unknown by me, been keeping a 'tally' of my symptom free days. I started bleeding on Sunday 14th November 2010. According to the diary my hubby has kept since then I have had a total of 94 days symptom free in 398 days. That makes me realise how poorly I have been. Not all of them have been in 1 go. A few days here and there. I think the best run I had was when I was on pred. But then I came off of it and everything went to hell.
Sorry for the long rant.
Will post what the doc says.
Sharon xxxx

 

[Artificial]

Hi Sharon,

Good luck for the results tomorrow.

I do understand about not wanting to take so many tablets all the time.

Not that I have had surgery for Crohns but from reading other peoples posts, if this is what the docs feel best then they must have good reason for it.

94 good days out of a year and a bit isn't that good when you look at it like that :-(

Hope they manage to sort something out for you!

x

 

[shazz]

Hi Artificial. Thank you for replying.
I didnt think I was that poorly until my hubby and me were discussing possibility of me having surgery. I was saying I am not poorly enough to need surgery. Then he comes out with his notebook!!
Couldnt believe it. It certainly puts it into perspective.

 

[moogie]

Sometimes we need to be told how sick we are. This plague seems to make us feel we must be strong all the time. We can't be strong all the time and if we need help we should get it. Good luck and let us know...

 

[shazz]

Thanks moogie. I know I always feel like I need to keep on going and going and I really find it hard to ask for help.
Am learning fast though.
Keep well. xxxx

 

[Hayleyberry]

Hi Sharon, that's so sweet your hubby is keeping track of your good and bad days! And I know how you feel re your results. Half of me wanted it to be Crohns and the other half didn't for the same reasons as you.
I hope they find out what's wrong so they can start making you feel better soon! Xxx

 

[shazz]

Thank you for replying. It is quite sweet isnt it? Bless

 

[Manzyb]

It sounds like you have a great husband!!! Keep us updated, and hang in there!

 

[shazz]

Thanks you hun. Am waiting for appointment time to roll around. Am last in today Grrrrrr hate waiting.
How are you doing now?
Have you had your op yet or is it next week?
xxxxx
Your little Sadie is SO GORGEOUS