I have just joined this forum although I have been reading it for some months now. I was diagnosed with Crohn's in 1992 and had my first surgery the same year. After trying all the "hot, new medications" at the time (we are talking 20 years ago!) and finding out that nothing worked, I had 2 feet of my colon removed. I was pretty good until late 1999 when, perhaps due to my own stupidity, I ended up in such bad shape that in June 2000 I was rushed in for emergency ileostomy surgery. The doctor gave me a loop ileostomy in the hopes that we would one day be able to reverse it. That has never happened and in 2002 the surgeon performed and end ileostomy and in 2004 I had my colon and rectum completely removed. Between 2000 and 2007 I had 11 surgeries. Since 2009 I have been in pretty bad shape (again) but I am desperately trying to avoid surgery number 13 (call me superstitious!). I have been on Remicade since November 2011 and my GI has just recently doubled the dose. Just like in the past, I am not having much luck with medications helping. Things have gotten to a point now where I just feel like I can't do this alone anymore. It's nice to be able to read stories from so many other people - it is comforting to know that there are others out there who can share my pain & frustration and hopefully offer support and "a shoulder to cry on". Thank you.