not new to crohns but to a whole other scary life
I used to post on support forums for these diseases but as divorce ends many things so did the possibility of using the net for support. My ex finally had enuf of all the things involved i.e. hospitalizations, surgeries, hence the lack there of a temporary stop to sex bc of the surgeries, the flares, etc. Of course he blamed it on many other things but deep down I knew. But the biggest blow of all was to replace me with someone else. Wow. That hurt. It took 1 1/2 yrs. to get it all resolved. The stress placed havoc on the disease. I'm still not thru that aspect. I have to take nightly IV therapies to make up for the fact that I lose so much fluid through the ileostomy. That hampers much of any social life I could have. To be honest I'm really tired of my life. Keep waiting for the joy to come. I haven't given up completely. I really feel the longer we stayed together his frustration came out in such abusive ways like emotional, verbal and at the end physically. It was such a blow to my self-esteem. As with limited income I don't have the capacity to attend therapy sessions. I get help from my state to help pay for my meds thanks be to God or I wouldn't know what I'd do. I have such a loving mother who helps pay for my rent but I know that as life is she won't be around for long as she is in her early 80's. I know there are others who are far worse than I so I hate to vent. My grown kids seem to feel I bring all this on myself. As a mom I haven't had the heart to tell them all that their dad did and probably never will. Just needed to vent. Wish I could run into some of the old posters like a Tom from I believe Michigan but know I'll make new ones though too.
I used to post on support forums for these diseases but as divorce ends many things so did the possibility of using the net for support. My ex finally had enuf of all the things involved i.e. hospitalizations, surgeries, hence the lack there of a temporary stop to sex bc of the surgeries, the flares, etc. Of course he blamed it on many other things but deep down I knew. But the biggest blow of all was to replace me with someone else. Wow. That hurt. It took 1 1/2 yrs. to get it all resolved. The stress placed havoc on the disease. I'm still not thru that aspect. I have to take nightly IV therapies to make up for the fact that I lose so much fluid through the ileostomy. That hampers much of any social life I could have. To be honest I'm really tired of my life. Keep waiting for the joy to come. I haven't given up completely. I really feel the longer we stayed together his frustration came out in such abusive ways like emotional, verbal and at the end physically. It was such a blow to my self-esteem. As with limited income I don't have the capacity to attend therapy sessions. I get help from my state to help pay for my meds thanks be to God or I wouldn't know what I'd do. I have such a loving mother who helps pay for my rent but I know that as life is she won't be around for long as she is in her early 80's. I know there are others who are far worse than I so I hate to vent. My grown kids seem to feel I bring all this on myself. As a mom I haven't had the heart to tell them all that their dad did and probably never will. Just needed to vent. Wish I could run into some of the old posters like a Tom from I believe Michigan but know I'll make new ones though too.
