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Hello everyone. I have been struggling a lot lately and would love some input.
Brief background-
2012 diagnosed with left sided colitis, after being on prednisone and clearing up enough to stay away from bathroom for an hour instead of ten minutes, my doctor deemed me cured and put me on Lialda to keep me stabilized. My doctor and my parents and all of my teachers and counselors thought I was a baby because I still had pain because according to them, I was in remission. Feb of 2014 my flare up had gotten so bad that I had to drop out of college. I had an emergency colonoscopy and found out that I had severe pan colitis. My parents felt bad at first but once the prednisone had kicked in, again they thought all was fine. They took me to a holistic doctor and he told me he could cure me. At this point I didn't want to try any more diets or special teas; I just wanted to get better, and fast. So the doctors urged my parents to put me on Remicade. After lots of fighting and my mother telling me that the "poison" would eventually kill me and make me have alien babies, I went on it.
So I started in April, also when I started my first job because I finally felt strong enough. Remicade was working wonders! Finally, a taste of the normal life! I started getting little joint aches at work. I thought maybe it was because of the rain or maybe I had just lifted too much. It started to become more frequent. Some days, from start to finish, I would have no energy, could hardly breathe, and my joint pain just kept moving further down my body and increasing with pain by the minute. Things didn't work out with my job and I quit a few weeks ago. Since then, I have been getting absolutely horrible joint pains. Once a couple months ago, at one point my wrist hurt so bad that it felt like someone was literally breaking it right then and there. It's been hard to do anything. I can't grip anything, can't lift anything, can't walk for very long, and stairs? Ha. So it seems like it would be the Remicade right? Well then I came across someone on Instagram who had Fibromyalgia. I had never heard of it so I decided to research it. All of the symptoms were things that I had been complaining about in my head but had come to be daily life. Like headaches; not a day goes by when I don't have one. And the over all sensitivity; I just can't handle it! Every noise feels like it's happening an inch from my ear, I can hardly drive at night because of the bright lights, I have a hard time listening to music which kills me, and every smell makes me want to throw up! I can't even have a tickle fight with my boyfriend without screaming in pain. Everything just hurts, everything aches, and everyday is miserable. Again, my parents won't listen to me. They think that I'm either being a big baby about it, or the "poison" is finally killing me slowly. I kept my mouth shut before for a year and a half which is the reason why my colitis became so severe. I don't know what to do? Am I overreacting? Is this due to Remicade? Or is it something more? I read that 30% of people with IBD suffer from Fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid Arthritis. I'm so depressed over this. I can't sleep. It's all I think about and I feel myself spiraling out of control. Please, I need some advice.
Brief background-
2012 diagnosed with left sided colitis, after being on prednisone and clearing up enough to stay away from bathroom for an hour instead of ten minutes, my doctor deemed me cured and put me on Lialda to keep me stabilized. My doctor and my parents and all of my teachers and counselors thought I was a baby because I still had pain because according to them, I was in remission. Feb of 2014 my flare up had gotten so bad that I had to drop out of college. I had an emergency colonoscopy and found out that I had severe pan colitis. My parents felt bad at first but once the prednisone had kicked in, again they thought all was fine. They took me to a holistic doctor and he told me he could cure me. At this point I didn't want to try any more diets or special teas; I just wanted to get better, and fast. So the doctors urged my parents to put me on Remicade. After lots of fighting and my mother telling me that the "poison" would eventually kill me and make me have alien babies, I went on it.
So I started in April, also when I started my first job because I finally felt strong enough. Remicade was working wonders! Finally, a taste of the normal life! I started getting little joint aches at work. I thought maybe it was because of the rain or maybe I had just lifted too much. It started to become more frequent. Some days, from start to finish, I would have no energy, could hardly breathe, and my joint pain just kept moving further down my body and increasing with pain by the minute. Things didn't work out with my job and I quit a few weeks ago. Since then, I have been getting absolutely horrible joint pains. Once a couple months ago, at one point my wrist hurt so bad that it felt like someone was literally breaking it right then and there. It's been hard to do anything. I can't grip anything, can't lift anything, can't walk for very long, and stairs? Ha. So it seems like it would be the Remicade right? Well then I came across someone on Instagram who had Fibromyalgia. I had never heard of it so I decided to research it. All of the symptoms were things that I had been complaining about in my head but had come to be daily life. Like headaches; not a day goes by when I don't have one. And the over all sensitivity; I just can't handle it! Every noise feels like it's happening an inch from my ear, I can hardly drive at night because of the bright lights, I have a hard time listening to music which kills me, and every smell makes me want to throw up! I can't even have a tickle fight with my boyfriend without screaming in pain. Everything just hurts, everything aches, and everyday is miserable. Again, my parents won't listen to me. They think that I'm either being a big baby about it, or the "poison" is finally killing me slowly. I kept my mouth shut before for a year and a half which is the reason why my colitis became so severe. I don't know what to do? Am I overreacting? Is this due to Remicade? Or is it something more? I read that 30% of people with IBD suffer from Fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid Arthritis. I'm so depressed over this. I can't sleep. It's all I think about and I feel myself spiraling out of control. Please, I need some advice.