Trapped

[OnlytheStronghaveCrohn's]

I just joined today because lately I'm feeling everything that is bottled up inside.

Sometimes I sit at my desk at work and I feel completely TRAPPED. I'm irritable most days and do just enough to get by. I'm have no interest in my current job but I am grateful that I'm able to support myself. I'm unhappy and I think about going back to school for my masters but I'm afraid of taking on more stress and making myself more sick. Does anyone else feel trapped by work?

Somedays I fantasize about just leaving NY behind and moving to a state where the sun shines all year. I suspect that this will improve my physical and mental state.

 

[OnlytheStronghaveCrohn's]

Its been 10 yrs since diagnosis. I'm significantly better than what I used to be but it sucks when physically you are completely uncomfortable and mentally you are just going through the motions at work. Not feeling alive. Just getting by to earn a paycheck. Just so frustrating, so I'm looking into careers where I feel I can help people and make a difference but it requires going back to school. Undergrad was tough enough..

 

[imisspopcorn]

Maybe look into volunteer work???

 

[farm]

I was trapped until they told me last week I'm loosing my job in May. I'm kinda excited about it.
Like you I was happy to just have a job, so I suffered through it.

While you still have a job, look for what might be available to you (school, another job, etc) that won't stress you out so much.

 

[OnlytheStronghaveCrohn's]

Yes I do volunteer and it feels good when I do, my goal is to feel that way 40 hrs a week.
Thank you guys for the input. I am looking to go back to school and I pray that I can handle it all. I'm reviewing my options for speech therapy. It will be intensive but if this is my true calling it will get done!

 

[Pirate]

I look at it as I'm a health guy trapped in a CD body.

I love my job, but working sucks sometimes.

 

[tamesis]

Sorry that you're feeling that way. It's deffinately hard to feel like you're not where you want to be in life, and hating your job. Hopefully you can figure out a way to do the schooling you want soon.

 

[Tan]

I love my job but when Im sick its the last place I want to be and days that Im at work sick I do feel like I don't enjoy it anymore but thats just because Im not well and feel like Im going thru the motions just to get thru the day. Good luck Im sure you will figure out where to head next!
Oh welcome to the forum!!

 

[shazamataz]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[merrywidow]

i am not trapped at work. i had to leave my job to care for my husband. now i cant get suitable childcare to return to it.
maybe when my son is independant enough i shall look, but then i maybe classed as too old. i was a HGV driver.

 

[Agent X20]

Sometimes I sit at my desk at work and I feel completely TRAPPED. I'm irritable most days and do just enough to get by. I'm have no interest in my current job but I am grateful that I'm able to support myself.

That just about sums me up, I think!
I'm being made redundant at work, which solves that problem, but I have to keep going until September.... except that I'm off sick at the moment... having a bit of a flare. The whole work thing is very stressful, and I'm keen to arrive at September without having to go the next step up in medication or even to have surgery... or even to have to go through any more scopes or probes to be honest.

The masters may by a good idea, I've even thought about it myself, but it would undoubtedly be stressful. There's obviously "good" stress and "bad" stress... but I'm not sure if the good stress is any less effective at setting off a flare.

Good luck and let us know if you make any life-changing decisions

 

[OnlytheStronghaveCrohn's]

Thank you guys =) Glad I joined.

 

[Guestly]

I often think that there are two types of stress.... there is the stress that pulls you down, the "I'm unhappy, I hate this work but I just gotta get through it", and of course this is hugely miserable....

But then there are other "stresses" which are almost healthy.... for example when the pressure is on to do something that you love, or where the goal is really fabulous - you know?

For example I do this party for my local children's ward every year - it's hugely stressful, so much to organise - 200 kids plus parents, entertainers, food, gifts.... the lift is endless.... I am run ragged with it, trying to organise volunteers, decorations, donations, and my family are all up in arms about "the stress"... but the thing is it's such a wonderful thing, that rewards me so much that the stress is different - more like adrenaline - and that I think, is good for you. Admittedly I did spend several days recovering after the last one!

It sounds flippant, and it's certainly easier said than done, but I do believe that if we can find the right path (even with this blight of an illness), then sometimes the "stress" (if it's that positive type of stress) will keep us stronger and keep us going...

I got made redundant in the summer, then I found another job in the September... I hated it, truly hated it. It was an easy job, no brains required, and I think that actually stressed me out - I have two degrees and got asked on the first day if I knew how to use a glue stick.... within weeks I was in hospital and I have been off work since.... Even though it was a nothing job, I truly believe the stress of being completely undervalued and underutilised contributed to the exacerbation of my illness.

Now I am looking at new horizons, and really rethinking what I want to do, it is stressful, and I am skint, but for some reason it feels more positive... like a stress of momentum...

Did any of that make sense at all??????

Anyway, my point is - follow your dreams.... and I don't believe all stress is bad...

I'm going to stop rambling now, I think I even confused myself!

Much love to you all!

Lishyloo x