It's me!!!!!
Wow...I am so overwhelmed reading all of this.
THANK YOU all so very much for the messages of support and love left here. Really is so touching, and thoughtful of you all.
Just reading back the events of the past few weeks...doesn't seem real, and feels like its happening/happened to someone else! Good job I'm not keeping a diary- the enteries here more than make up for it. Though I doubt I'll ever wish to visit 2011 again once this is all over.!!
I'm not sure where to start. It's been a bumpy ride so far, and is yet to get anywhere near then end.
I'll start with the GOOD news- As you know, work lost it's battle to sack me. There should be a smilie which shows a little guy sticking up his middle finger- cos that's what I'm doing right now. Really didn't expect this outcome, but it's good news, and I hope to return soon.
Oz and I are still getting along brilliantly. We have our 'off' days, but it's never worse than it was with UC. Chemo seems to have an effect on output, but its more than manageable.
Bloods are improving daily, and my ANC is getting back to being somewhere near where it should be.
All surgical scars are almost completely healed- and NO infections along the way.:ybiggrin:
On the other hand- I'm now back at the Cancer hospital. Boy I f*@*@*g HATE this place with a passion. Everyone here seems more ill than I. It's so far removed from my Gastro ward, where everything was so much laid back.
I feel a fraud being here- taking a bed that someone else could possibly need more than I.
We had hoped that chemo would resume on Monday. Its been a 2 week break now, and we need to get back on top of thing's. Told today that it won't be happening Monday- God knows when it will resume!
My bloody cough is annoying the hell outta me, and possibly everyone in sight. It's been here MONTHS now, and has obviously taken to my lungs so much that it refuses to leave. Well its time it found a new home and took its friends Crohns and Cancer with it. This Welshy is no more accomodating!
I have turned into THE BIGGEST MOANER EVER!! I even find myself thinking 'get a bloody grip And!', or 'Just shut the f**c up And!'
I've started to watch GOLF!!?? BUT its somewhat therapeutic watching someone whack the crap out of a little ball. The driving range will be on my list of to do thing's on my way home...
I've frightened the crap into Dusty, and am eternally threatening to land in Oz sometime soon. Well honey- its no threat. I'm currently at terminal 5 and will land in Sydney on Sunday. Will expect you there with champagne on ice to welcome me!!:ybiggrin:
Have I mentioned I moan loads....:boring:
Right, I could go on forever, but I'm sure most of you have lives to get back to!
Thanks again for the messages. I will be around more often from now- my head isn't in the bucket or down the loo as much as it was, so typing is much easier!
Before I sign out...Dusty, Joan THANK YOU both so much. Thanks for being here through the vomiting, the tears, the drugged up to my tits moments. You really have made this crap few weeks much crappier !!! lol
Joan- hope 'Fizz' is settling in nicely. BE NICE!! Love ya xxx
Dusty - See you Sunday!! Infinity and beyond xxxxx
Hope you ALL have a great weekend.
Love to you all
And xxxx