I went into the hospital to have mt appendix removed (i had the big D for over 10+ years and they told me it was IBS, well, they found a mass and had to take it out, no cancer, but they said crohes for sure. i was always around 180 during mid life, oo I'm 61 now, Around 2005-6 i started lossing weight a little at a time having D all the time, but only about 2-3 times a day. I went through alot of **** from 2006, lost Mom and Dad, wife was sick (very sick, but ok now) and in 2009 I lost my job. I was down to about 165 then. but by mid 2011 i was down to 140. I went to the Doc. and the did test and said my appendix needs to come out. After they found the mass they took part of my collen and small intes. and re-conected me. 2 days after i got out of the hosp. i saw a wet spot on my shirt and went to the Dr., turns out that the connection broke and I was Septic, they operated again and I was in the hosp again for 2 weeks and i came out of there at 122lbs. I thought, What the _____? Well i have gained a few lbs, about 8-10. I have a ostomy bag now and the wond still is not healed. It's been 6 week post op. To make things worse, as of 12-31-2012 my insurance changed right in the middle of everything by my pension program. I have to find ALL new Dr. for everything. I had Kaiser and they were great, now i have a ppo, i went to a new PC Dr, today because i need home care for my wond. they said they will work on it, as of now I'm taking care of the woud. I am in a very bad space right now. All i do is think of is the crohes and how this is messing up my retirerment, i can't do anything and i'm begining to wonder if i ever will. I need to gain some weight. I'm try'n with ensure, protin bars, eating alot when i feel good. seems like all i do is eat and sleep, i hate it. I can't wait till the woud is healed or they get me some HOME CARE, i hate doing it myself. I have 2 6cm tunnels that are getting smaller but i still don't like to be the guy in charge. I need to think possative and up until the 30th of Dec. I was for the most part, but right now all i can think of is life with crohn's and feeling like crap. They have me on Pentasa noe 4 6X a day w/a ostomy bag. My GI said it still works. At least I don't have any bleeding and the pain is not to great in regards to the crohns, I think, its hard to tell when you got a wond and a ostomy bag hanging off your side. Just in a bad space tonight as you can tell. Think I'll smoke a fat boy, i don't drink or smoke cig. anymore. I stopped smoking on Nov. 7th when I went in for the 1st operation. I'm sure there is someone out there that can cheer me up a little. I promise I'll return the faver when I'm in a better space.
