Weight :(

[Asher]

Okay. I'm going to sound vain, but I can't voice these feelings to anyone face to face.

I'm so used to being the petite girl. I'm 28, 5'2 and usually weigh 120-ish. Since ending prednisone a few weeks ago and on a low fiber/don't eat any fruits or veggies. I've gained a solid 10-15 pounds. And the scale is still going up...

I know 135 doesn't sound like a lot. But with someone of my frame, I am starting to hate being in my own skin.

I'm just used to seeing myself one way and well, I'm starting to hate the new me.

I don't have a large appetite, I know it's solely from eating junk, noodles and bread all day because I can't eat ANYTHING healthy. Ugh. I just want a salad. I want veggies. I want fruit. I just wish I could eat what I used to. I wish my body would quit putting on this weight.

I'm so worries my husband is becoming less attracted to me.

Please don't think I'm going to develop an eating disorder. I love good waaaay too much to give it up. But man, I worry I'm going to develop some sort of self-image disorder.

I just want to hear this will get better. I want to feel like me again.

I've been trying to repeat to myself that I am not my body. I believe I am more than this.

 

[DJW]

I understand the frustration. Are you still flaring? Have you started maitinance meds? Once things settle you will be able to modify you diet again. Hang in there.

 

[aideen33]

All I can offer is my commiseration, I am in a similar boat and as DJW said above, my doc assures me that once we find the right med combo, that can give me some remission, we can get me off the steroids and i can go back to eating the way i used to.... Hang in there!

 

[Bailee208]

I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND!! I went from a very defined 160lbs (at 5'8") size 9 to 228lbs size 14. I was too embarrassed to even go to the corner shop for milk. I wasn't overeating, and of course what I was able to keep down, came right on out barely digested. I was malnourished, constantly sick, cranky and losing friends left and right because I was always breaking plans at the last minute (too embarrassed to go anywhere and have "nowhere to go" or be stuck in the bathroom for LONG periods of time). Along with all that, I'm losing my partner because I'm insecure from both weight gain and how SUPER SEXY THIS DISEASE ISN'T!!! I PROMISE IT WILL GET BETTER. Not soon enough, I know. Hang in there, I'm finding there's alot more to me than I previously knew about MYSELF. I've come to see who my TRUE friends are, and I KNOW FOR ONCE my boyfriend genuinely loves ME, not JUST FOR what I look like on his arm. Lastly, unlike the TP roll, Poop jokes never run out!!!

 

[Nancye50]

I totally know what you mean. I equate salads with "eating healthy" so when I couldn't eat those, I couldn't figure out how to get on track. I feel so much better when I have made or bought juice and have bone broth on hand to make quick bowls of soup. Little things like that helped me break the noodle cycle.

 

[my little penguin]

Ds was on pred two years ago
Gained twenty pounds in two months
Not good for an 8 year old.
Also no raw veggies or fruit

Cooked veggies are fine for Ds
Soft fruit like melons /cantaloupe or fruit cups(in juice)
Also work out well
Once he got on the right maintence meds
Things have improved greatly and his weight went back to normal

 

[Stuartd1972]

I know how you feel. I Was a steady 93kg until this time last year when I got hit by my first flare up. I lost 20-25pounds in a week and half. After many trips to my GP I ended up inA@E and was admitted to hospital. I stayed for two weeks on IV antibiotics and the doctors hadn't got a clue what was wrong. Both my brothers have CD and still the doctors said no it looks like my appendix. Thankfully in July I got diagnosed with Colitis and CD. Was on pred and now just take 50mg of anzaporone (or whatever it's called). Now I am just over 100kg and seem to put on weight just by eating a sandwich !! 2015 and I'm going back to the gym and try and be active even though I'm always knackered and could fall asleep standing up !!!

 

[FrozenGirl]

I'm the same. Naturally skinny but it gained weight with pred. Even months after getting off it I still weigh about 5 pounds more than usual and ( my biggest distress) is stomach fat. I feel like everything I wear looks terrible. I still can't eat 'healthy' which really contributes to my not losing weight/ fat. It is really frustrating.