19 years of pure hell...my story

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So before I get too carried away with post relies, I guess I'd better tell my story.

Side-note. For those that are reading this and are relatively new to Crohn's, don't forget...I didn't have internet 19yrs back to get info. Crohn's wasn't as common as it is now.

Back in April 1993 (I was 19yrs) I had a beautiful baby girl. I had always had blacking out episodes since I was little so my doc decided to take her by C-sect. lol, I was fine with that!

So things were good, tummy was healing great then I got my first "flu" this went on for about 6 months. From my family doc to the ER, everyone kept saying I had the "Flu" go home and let it run it's course. Okay, now I'm down to 73lbs (was 175 after baby) Mom was force feeding me ice, dad was carrying me to toilet and mom was cleaning my bum...nice, I was 19!! my dad had enuff, carried my to the truck and took me back to the ER. Nurse took one look at me and rushed me in to a room without even registering me in. I was one day away from death, one more day and I would have been carried into the morgue.

My first doc was a moron! Diagnosed me with Hodgkins disease and or possibly Parkinson's disease...his bedside manors were terrible as well. My last words to him were not purdy lol

months in and out of the hospital, I finally got a doc that diagnosed me with severe Crohn's and Ulcerative Colitis..yeah, double the fun!

I was put on the beginning Crohn's meds (Sulfa based) with no relief, so he put me on 100mg of prednisone/day and this helped. I went into remission for about 1 year and landed back in the hospital. This doc was prednisone happy and wanted me to continue with that treatment. It wasn't working, so why bother?!

I also developed severe RH, my whole body was affected and lots of bone pain! It was so bad, I was told I'd be in a wheelchair soon and they were talking hip replacements and rib cracking. My ribs were curling into my lungs, bone doc wanted to wait and see before she did surgery on this.

New doc in 1998....A few more meds were tried, a few more meds that didn't work! This doc ran down the list from mild to potent drugs, my body kept rejecting the meds and I was getting worse. She was baffled, I was getting side effects that were not even listed. I was then approved for Remicade treatment around 1998/1999. This was fantastic, I could eat and I could walk!! For about 4months, then my body rejected that too. I was very sick from it.

With loss for treatment, I gave up and just let my Crohn's and UC do it's thing...until I got extremely sick in 2002, scope was done and so were my intestines. Worse case my doc had ever seen and dealt with. My intestines were black and dying, surgery time. I had my bowel resect done in January of 2003. I lost 3/4's of my large and 1/3 of my small and landed in the ICU for 2weeks cause the surgery went wrong!! The staples didn't hold and I was bleeding internally. I was passing large amounts of black blood and passed a clot the size of an apple. I was in Hospital for 5 weeks with a surgery that only required up to 1week stay.

The surgery wasn't a success and I was back to dealing with my Crohn's and UC on top of the extreme bone pain. I was then put on Imuran and this was not good. I was admitting into the hospital yet again. The Imuran attacked my pancreas, man, I felt like death!!
So, I dealt with this on my own for a few years with the help of small doses of prednisone from my family doc.

In 2005, I purchased a horse, she was my lifeline and kept me out of the hospital. I now had something that relied on me to feed and clean, I had no choice but to have to get up and go. This was the best thing I did for myself! I felt great, she saved me from the wheelchair. She passed away in 2009 :(

In 2008, I got really sick with some horrible Flu (yes was really a flu this time) It was at this time I developed the fistulas...talk about PAIN!! WOW! This fistula mad it's way from butt to vag and blew open there..friggin' painful I tell ya. II was sent for a MRI and I actually had a few. 2-rectal, 2-uterus, 1-bladder and 1-external.

My GI doc then sent me to another doc in 2009, that only specialized in medicine. By 2010 I was approved for Humira. It will be 2 years this October that I have been on this with much relief of bone pain but Crohn's and UC are still present but bearable. The fistulas didn't heal either at 1week injection intervals, so I'm waiting on the referral to another GI doc to fix this by surgery.

Through the 19 years of dealing with this, I have also suffered on and off with depression...kinda the ole, Sick of being sick! So many up's and downs!

So that is my story, there is much more but I think I have dragged it out long enuff.

I stumbled across this site by accident while looking up vaginal fistula's. I have to say...It was a good stumble :)
 
Well first thing welcome to the forum,
I'm so sorry to hear that you are having to deal with all this, take a look around the forum you will find that many people have a lot in common, I'm happy you found us, wow you really have been dealing with a lot, I hope you find comfort in talking and letting out what is bothering you, keep your head up.
I also suffer from the lovely fistulas........they suck!
 
Hi sugar,
welcome to the forum. im julie and i have uc and some sort of undiagnosed chronic pancreaititis!!!
Thats some battle you've been fighting but you managed to keep a positive attitude and good humour telling it.
Im sure you'll become a valued source of info for lots of people on here and i look forward to chatn in the future.

Ju
 
Thanks Mama & Mac, it really has been a tough road for me. I have no problem opening up about my issue now, took many years to do so but I've done it :)
The fistula's have been the hardest of this whole journey! I have already been shocked to hear some of the issues I've encountered are shared issues and not just me.

Hi Julie and thanks as well. I've had to shed humor on this dreadful disease, only way I've gotten to where I am now.
What meds are you on? Some will actually attack your pancreas. We only found out it was the Imuran when I was admitted and wasn't receiving my routine meds. When the meds started back up, so did the pancreas, took the Imuran out and I was better in a day.

I will help where I can and learn what I don't. So nice to be able to hear that I'm not alone or crazy! My doc's have stunned looks on their faces when a new issue arises, they don't know so they basically blame something else (Viral, in my head etc) it's never the medications fault or Crohn's related.
 
Hi Julie and thanks as well. I've had to shed humor on this dreadful disease, only way I've gotten to where I am now.
What meds are you on? Some will actually attack your pancreas. We only found out it was the Imuran when I was admitted and wasn't receiving my routine meds. When the meds started back up, so did the pancreas, took the Imuran out and I was better in a day.

Sugar,
Im was on mezevant at the time but they took me of it and then my Uc spread rapidly. Now im going on remicade and am skipping imuran and 6mp because they can cause pancreatic attacks.
I am being investigated for autoimmune pancreatitis because prednisolone stopped the pancreas pain. Pred did nothing for my UC symptoms.

So have you had no pancreas issues since. do you think it was an isolated accute attack?

Ju
 
Morning sugar
I really have to agree with you, the fistulas have been by far the harest thing to deal with too.
I completely understand, I have been able to deal with everything this dreadful crohn's has sent my way, even all the obstructions and surgeries, but the fistulas are the worst! I also had an illeostomy for 2 years, was reconnected after the MRI said no sign of fistulas.....but 2 weeks later hello what do you know ... Here we go again! So for me remicade will be started again and hope that I haven't any antibodies from the last time I was on it( I believe that's what you call it) I think it's an intolerance the body builds up to the meds? I really wish you all the best in whatever choice you go with. It's not normal to poop in a bag BUT it's not normal to have poop coming from places it was NEVER intended to come out of. So good luck with your continuing journey. You sound like you still have a lot of fight in you as do I.............all the best
 
Good Morning :)

Julie,
So the Mezevant is 5-ASA? This was one I was on like 14yrs ago. It is known to attack pancreas as well. Is it possible this is where your pancreas issues stemmed from?
I was lucky and was caught early in the Imuran treatment. If I remember correctly, it was around the 2week mark. So just maybe not enough time to do permanent damage.
And no, I have not had anymore pancreas issues since.

That's the problem with the drugs we are treated with, they may help the Crohn's, UC and bones but create a whole new problem.

Mama & Mac,
That really sucks, sorry to hear. That would be so disappointing, go through 2years with colostomy only to have it revered and fistulas still there. Have you thought about Humira as the treatment? It's basically the same drug but more natural to your body, where Remicade is mouse derived Humira is human derived. Even though I hate needles and my BF has to inject for me, still way better then the 2hour infusion that Remicade offers. Also my body rejected Remicade but I'm doing quite well with the Humira...well except for the fistulas not closing.

No, not normal to poo outta yer crotch! When the outer one broke open, I had no clue what the heck was going on and the pain was the worst I've ever felt. I didn't know what a Fistula was. It started at my bum and a clot-like thing travel to my vag, I thought it was a hemorrhoid blood clot, till it bursted open an poo was coming out of it. I went to the ER and explained that "I was pooing out of my vagina" the doc actually chuckled and said "there is no way you can poo from your vagina" Humm, surprise doc!!

As for my Fistulas I can handle the rectal ones, but need the vag and bladder ones fixed ASAP!! I'm sick of crotch infections and bladder/UTI's and this can't go on any longer. Can't be good for either body part/organ. My one doc (now dropped) didn't want to operate as she said it may damage my bladder to do so. My medicine only doc said no to this, so long as the surgeon knows what he or she is doing. Well then, same doc the messed up my bowel resect sure as heck ain't gonna mess up my girly parts or bladder!! so bye-bye lol
 
OMG.....That doc needs a wake up call, i've been pooping from mine for ( are you ready for this) 5 1/2 years.

You are so right girl......I'm with you on not @&$@ing up the hooha..lol
All the best to you my dear :)
 
Ya, my Hooha has had enough with poo battering it, it sure don't need a doc &@%$ up as well.

Dang! 5 1/2 years?! ugh, I'm at about 4yr mark possibly longer (battled UTI's for a year before the exterior one blew), surgery is looking better with every post I read on these nasty things!

All the Best to you as well
 
Good Morning :)

Julie,
(So the Mezevant is 5-ASA? This was one I was on like 14yrs ago. It is known to attack pancreas as well. Is it possible this is where your pancreas issues stemmed from?
I was lucky and was caught early in the Imuran treatment. If I remember correctly, it was around the 2week mark. So just maybe not enough time to do permanent damage.
And no, I have not had anymore pancreas issues since.

That's the problem with the drugs we are treated with, they may help the Crohn's, UC and bones but create a whole new problem. )

Yes it is a 5asa and that is the reason i was taken of it. they didnt get me into remission but they sure kept it at bay.
Its hard to know were my pancreas issues stemmed from. im still in the process of being tested for various forms of chronic pancreatitis. i havent had a diagnosis yet. heading for some specialists to get prodded and probed.

Ju
 

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