Thanks Marisa, Bev, Dusty,
I really can not believe that this is what things have come to. I am feeling a weird combo of physical pain, emotional relief (maybe the pain will at least lower?) and anger at the way that this whole deal has taken my strength and vitality away for nearly two years-that didn't need to be this way. In a great deal of pain but looking towards some resolution and a shot at getting my life back to what it was, my relationships, activities, and a career that I enjoyed a great deal. Again, I am so very thankful for the people i have met here. Some have been friends and moved on, some new really wonderful people, including you three.
I hope to post soon after I have some concrete answers/changes and thank all who have thought for even a moment- a positive thought in my direction. I also want to thank my wife, we have had some very tough times through this past two years. I thank you Laur for your patience when I was a P!#!@#
and your tenacity with not letting me give up when i felt it was the best way to go. She is a tremendously strong willed lady, who has been loyal and honest from the beginning of "US" (9 years ago +). I have not been an easy person to be around for some time now, focusing so much on what i have lost and forgetting the love that was right in front of me. Having both of us be so bullheaded can get ya through a lot of tough stuff, but if all you are doing each day is getting through, you forget the reasons your are fighting so hard. I lost my smile and my focus, I love your Laur. I hope we can get back to holding hands and finding a new way to live each day together.
A very special thanks to Ding who has been a diamond of a friend to me. We are all very blessed to have someone of her caliber always here to help us ---never voicing her own struggles. You are a very bright light in an often cloudy, murky world.
I will work very hard to "Pay it Forward" with all of the kindness, empathy, and wisdom that has been lent to me.
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