hi Jis!! Welcome to the forum.
I just went through something similar a few weeks ago. I was waiting for test results on my legs as they both had DVTS last winter & the hematologist wanted to see if the treatment had worked PLUS I had to wait for a decision from my GI surgeon to see if he wanted to open me up AGAIN this year due to the wound (it's small) not closing up from surgery 6/20 and being diagnosed by the infection MD with Staph AND put on Keflex.
GOOD TIMES HAD BY ALL!! LOL
Anyway, the doppler showed that 1 leg was worse w/small clots and 1 leg was better with small clots. The doctor reading the results couldn't tell if they were dissolved and new ones appeared or if they were the same ones from last winter. Was I disappointed? sure. I really hoped that they'd be gone but seeing as I have a clotting disorder that's genetic, crap happens and I just continue to follow the doctor's orders.
As for the surgery, Dr. B. said that the operation was off the table as I was on Keflex and on e-stimulation therapy to get the blood flowing around the wound so it'd close up. The infection disease PA was on top of that.
I've had surgeries for the last 15 yrs. since I've been married. Never a dull moment with me as my friends tell me. It's gotten to the point since I've turned 45 yrs. young, nothing really phases me anymore. I've been through it all (Crohn's & clotting wise) & I do what I gotta do until the problem is resolved. Talking to my BFF, watching a comedy DVD or going out with my friends helps if I start to feel sad or depressed.
Talk to your spouse, SO, BFF, family, rent comedy DVDs, read, etc. to lift your spirits up.
Focus on a hobby. Heck, when I knew I needed surgery in June thinking I'd be an inpatient at the time (I was lucky though, there was no infection just scar tissue and a tiny fistula that was caught before it got huge so I was able to go home same day), I finished all of my Christmas shopping for my nieces/nephews, MIL, and husband. Got his birthday and wedding anniversary gifts done too.
I forgot to add counseling can help and asking about possible medication for depression. My bad. sorry
hang in there.