Don't ask why, but why?

[mamagus]

I know it doesn't matter now, because you're diagnosed, but how do you stop wondering - is it my fault? (my doctor tells me it isn't) - could i have done something differently? should i be doing something differently now?

Have you ever wondered why? why does it happen to him - or her. or you... or me?

why does crohn's patient A do well with this, this, and that food, but crohn's patient b - can't tolerate anything at all.

Why is there no cure? why do the treatments have such horrible side effects? (lymphoma, liver disease, cancer, surgeries, pain, cramps, and bags?)

sigh... imuran starts tuesday. wish you all remission!

 

[valleysangel92]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time * hugs* .

Your doctor is right, this is not your fault. This disease is random and horrible to deal with, and no one asks for it or deserves it.

One of the worst things is all the unknowns about why some things work for some people but not for others. I know its difficult and frustrating and confusing, and it's ok to feel like that. It's ok to question why. Just remember, it is not your fault. You did not ask for this and you are not to blame. Remember to take time out to look at the positives too, a diagnosis means you have something to try and treat, even if it's not straight forward and you are not alone. We are all here with you and we are all willing you better. You come and vent to us whenever you need. We understand.

I sincerely hope that the Imuran helps you and allows you to get into remission.