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My name is Claire and I have been suffering with this for 7 years and only the past few months after countless amounts of tests etc the doctor says I have chrohns. Not only do I have this I now suffer from servere panic attacks that trigger when I dont have instant use of a toilet. I dont work, go out, have any friends/boyfriend left because I can not leave the house for 2 mintues without needing the loo. I can't even travel to see my family members 3 miles down the road because I have been caught out, soild myself in the past and I cant cope with it. I have even bought a port a loo for my bedroom because I just freak out when others use the loo in my house. My grand father had a massive heart operation last year and we didn't think he would live so everyone went the the hosital and guess what, I couldn't go. My grandmother was asking my to take her to the hospital and I couldn't. My cousin died and I couldnt go the funeral. I'm looking into swaping my subaru for motor home with a toilet so that I can travel again. I am so so so depressed and I dont see the point in living this life as I cant do anything. Dealing with the one is bad enough but the both!!!
Every second of every day, toilets are all I think about.
People tell me its all in my head and that I dont need the toliet and to just get on with it, unless you have this condition others will never understand. I've tried almost every anti-depressant tablet in the world to carm myself but nothing works. I've had councilling and been for hypnotherapy but I am still living in this hell.
I have asked the doctor to fit me with a bag so that I can get on with my life but they would help me. At least that way I'd be able to go out and live my life and try and get my 7 years back. People really dont know how lucky they are being able to control their bowels. Because I have 5 seconds from when I get the signal to when I need to be sitting on the toilet.
This cant be the way to live with ths surly :depressed:
Thanks for reading claire
Every second of every day, toilets are all I think about.
People tell me its all in my head and that I dont need the toliet and to just get on with it, unless you have this condition others will never understand. I've tried almost every anti-depressant tablet in the world to carm myself but nothing works. I've had councilling and been for hypnotherapy but I am still living in this hell.
I have asked the doctor to fit me with a bag so that I can get on with my life but they would help me. At least that way I'd be able to go out and live my life and try and get my 7 years back. People really dont know how lucky they are being able to control their bowels. Because I have 5 seconds from when I get the signal to when I need to be sitting on the toilet.
This cant be the way to live with ths surly :depressed:
Thanks for reading claire