How Do You Go On?????

[CentaurCEO]

:depressed: <------Seems to be the sign I carry around these days. It seems like Crohn's Disease has taken almost everything from me. I was a very good athlete (ran Track from Middle-School to College) and now I can't do that anymore. I had a good job but lost it because I was too sick too often. I was in college but kept having to be in the Hospital from surgeries. And everything else goes down hill from there. Since I lost my job bills piled up like mountains destroying my credit (oh how great my credit used to be). Don't have money to fix my car and my phone is cut off so I can't Mentor anymore (no way to get there and no way to really communicate with my mentees). College seems so out of reach because those surgeries during the semester really messed up my grades and financial aid.

I am engaged but we had to postpone the wedding I whole year because our finances are so messed up (and financial problems are the leading cause of divorce well over infedelity). I'm 25 years old and I'm living back home with my mother (that's pretty depressing for me). It is by the grace of God that I still have health insurance under my mother (don't ask me how I still have it and I'm 25). I can't work, can't go to school, can't mentor, cant' do much of anything. It is like since Crohn's hit me my Freshman year of college my life went from Cans to Can'ts.

I get no true relief from surgeries or medications so that is depressing enough not to even get on the EXTRA stuff Crohn's has messed up.

HOW DO YOU GO ON WHEN THERE IS NO END IN SIGHT? I pray, I give my time and energy to others when I can (by mentoring), but it seems like nothing is going right.

I'm sorry but I just really had to get this out because I have a very supportive Fiancee and Family but they still don't get it.

 

[CentaurCEO]

Thank You Shantel. You are definitely right about having a place to stay and that Miracle Insurance.

And Predinsone is not doing the job and I tried Remicade and it had bad effects on me. I'm compiling info from you guys and gals to take to my GI Doc about other meds to try. I just need to be able to get a few feet from my bed so I can handle some other business. I'm pretty much stuck in my room during this Flare.

BUT THANKS AGAIN FOR YOU QUICK REPLY. I needed that.

 

[shazamataz]

I agree with Shantel - try and focus on what you DO have.

I know it is hard and being sick can mess with your head and make you feel down, but there is always SOMETHING!

Like, you have a supportive fiancee? Yay for you. Having someone special is a really good reason to keep carrying on and hoping for the future.

And having a mum who has you home with her. Nothing to be ashamed of living with your mum, even at your age. I am 38 and my Dad is probably my best friend and I see him more than I see anyone else. I hope I don't end up having to ever 'move home' at my age, but i would do it if I had to.

Hang in there, the only way is up!

((((HUGS))))

shaz

 

[imisspopcorn]

Sorry it's so hard for you right now. How do you go on? That's the million dollar question...My answer....You just do. One minute at a time, one hour, one day....I pray, and pray and pray. I thank God for even the littlest achievement. You will get through this. Say to your self..I will get through this. Keep fighting....We are here to listen.

 

[CentaurCEO]

Thank You shazamataz and imisspopcorn................You guys make me feel better!!!!!

 

[shazamataz]

Thank You shazamataz and imisspopcorn................You guys make me feel better!!!!!

Yay!! That's what i am here for - it's what i do best