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Ok folks, I need to vent. I need to scream.
I need to get this off my freaking chest.
I HATE YOU CROHNS.
3 weeks ago after my acid reflux from hell and my ER trip 2 weeks ago and the subsequent "you're back on "pred now" talk...
I am still hurting.
I was on 40 mg up until yesterday when I started my taper and went down to 30. I Guess that was a mistake I am not sure. Last night it started rumbling down there and this morning I had a bowl movement that would make a lumberjack blush.
And it's still going. ALL DAY TODAY my stomach has been hurting and cramping. And to make matters worse I feel so weak and tired. Just gross and icky.
I hate it.
I have some pain meds but I'm not taking them. I don't feel comfortable taking meds as it is, so if it gets bad enough I'll rock out some Tylenol.
But my point is...WTF STOMACH / GUTS
Why are you still flaring? I JUST HAD REMMICADE 1 week before the flare!
And now I'm on pred too and I'm still so sick?
And you know what else...
WHY AM I STILL SO FAT? As sick as I am, why in the hell am I still fat? I can't even have typical Crohns and be thin. At least that would make me a little happy. (as sick (mentally) as that sounds.)
I feel so trapped! I cannot exercise, I can't eat anything but freaking junk food because real food hurts me.
I am SO ANGRY today. I have a formal dress that I need to sew and I don't have the energy to do this atm!
I need to get this off my freaking chest.
I HATE YOU CROHNS.
3 weeks ago after my acid reflux from hell and my ER trip 2 weeks ago and the subsequent "you're back on "pred now" talk...
I am still hurting.
I was on 40 mg up until yesterday when I started my taper and went down to 30. I Guess that was a mistake I am not sure. Last night it started rumbling down there and this morning I had a bowl movement that would make a lumberjack blush.
And it's still going. ALL DAY TODAY my stomach has been hurting and cramping. And to make matters worse I feel so weak and tired. Just gross and icky.
I hate it.
I have some pain meds but I'm not taking them. I don't feel comfortable taking meds as it is, so if it gets bad enough I'll rock out some Tylenol.
But my point is...WTF STOMACH / GUTS
Why are you still flaring? I JUST HAD REMMICADE 1 week before the flare!
And now I'm on pred too and I'm still so sick?
And you know what else...
WHY AM I STILL SO FAT? As sick as I am, why in the hell am I still fat? I can't even have typical Crohns and be thin. At least that would make me a little happy. (as sick (mentally) as that sounds.)
I feel so trapped! I cannot exercise, I can't eat anything but freaking junk food because real food hurts me.
I am SO ANGRY today. I have a formal dress that I need to sew and I don't have the energy to do this atm!