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- Oct 21, 2011
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After starting to do better in the spring, my health seems to have taken another downturn.
I had one of my mid-cycle-I-can't-get-out-of-bed-for-three-days attacks in June, and I feel like I might be on the verge of another one.
My father complains that "everything with me is about pain" when I mentioned (correctly) that my first flare happened in Venice.
My mother tells me "not to borrow trouble" when I feel a flare building and that I "can't afford to take any more time off work" for my illness.
My doctor says it's "just mittelschmerz" and doesn't take me seriously about how debilitating the pain is.
I just want to break down crying somewhere because I feel so invalidated by everyone around me. I don't WANT to be sick. I don't WANT to be in pain. I don't want this MYSTERY illness that might be IBD or might not but it was at some point????
I had one of my mid-cycle-I-can't-get-out-of-bed-for-three-days attacks in June, and I feel like I might be on the verge of another one.
My father complains that "everything with me is about pain" when I mentioned (correctly) that my first flare happened in Venice.
My mother tells me "not to borrow trouble" when I feel a flare building and that I "can't afford to take any more time off work" for my illness.
My doctor says it's "just mittelschmerz" and doesn't take me seriously about how debilitating the pain is.
I just want to break down crying somewhere because I feel so invalidated by everyone around me. I don't WANT to be sick. I don't WANT to be in pain. I don't want this MYSTERY illness that might be IBD or might not but it was at some point????