I think I have reached my breaking poinT

[ThatGuy2006]

:ymad: :ymad: I am not sure how many of you remember me but i had a bowel resection back on Dec. 1st. I did well after the first 3-4 weeks after the hospital stay but the last 2-3 weeks I have been battling a plethora of problems.

1. I tried weaning off prednisone after the doctor ordered it, but I had some severe withdrawal symptoms so the doc but me back on it, and is weaning me off at a slower rate.

2. Is it normal for prednisone to cause insanity?! (ei. Depression, mood swings, borderline bipolar attitude)?

3. I feel these problems have caused a rift in many of my relationships with people, the main one being my significant other (my rock). I love being with her but I've been getting aggravated for no reason and I end up hurting her feelings.

4. Lately my stomach problems are starting up again. (my appetite is normal but I have constant diarrhea and fatigue) The doc thought I was a bacteria, put me on flagyl and that was that. I hope its not my crohn's coming back...

5. I have no job and little money...I hate to seem like a burden to others by asking for a favor here and there...

Needless to say, I think I am driving myself mad..:ybatty: :ybatty:

Does anyone have any suggestions/advice about any of these items, please respond

Later, and thank you for reading,
Brandon

 

[jed]

hey Brandon,

1, 2 & 3 are all probably a lil tied to each other.

yes pred can cause some mild mental problems, so can long hospital stays, surgery and having to deal with such an arse of a disease on a daily basis (often with what seems like no end in site)

i think all of us have gone through angry agressive stages in our lives, i know i had a few months after surgery where i was gettin quite pissy with everyone.

you probably need to find a way to vent this anger, or a way where you can find that peaceful place inside yourself again.

just remember the anger and annoyance doesnt have to be a perminant fixtuer in your life, you just need to find your happy place

best wishes

Jed

 

[daisy_dueller]

I hear you about the significant other part...my poor husband has been through hell and back with me and this disease. Sometimes I feel like he's on the back burner, or that I'm just irritated in general, and it gets directed at him. I don't think that's abnormal though...the people that are around us all the time have to deal with every aspect of this disease too...other than the physical part. Have you tried talking to your gf about how you feel? Letting her know that it's not her fault, and that you realize what's happening may make a HUGE difference. I've found that being open about CD to my family and friends has helped them to understand more, and be more accepting of things. (ie...stopping at a restroom in the mall, like, 5 times in one afternoon).

Regarding the job thing...it can be hard once you have CD to get a job...people constantly regard you as 'sick'...therefore not an asset...SO not true! You may need to try to get a job that allows you the least amount of physical activity. AKA...the dreaded desk job. Not always fun, but will bring in some cash when you need it! Although with the economy the way it is right now, it may be hard to find a job, period...do you feel ready to work?

Don't ever feel like you are a burden to anyone!! You have a legitimate reason for asking for favours!

 

[ThatGuy2006]

Re:

Thanks for the help/advice you guys. I have talked about the way this disease/medicine makes me feel and I think she is understanding that if I do get irritated with her, that it is not her. That is what I want. I've also been trying to put my mind in another place if I ever get to feeling like that. As for my family understanding...I dont think they ever will. They assumed that after my surgery that I would never have to deal with this disease again, which is what I understood from the start (that this disease is something I have to live with). I did call my doc and I am seeing him on thursday, and I am hoping that I can finally open up to him and tell him exactly how bad I feel. I tend to hold back when talking to him, because I am scared of appearing weak