I will try to make a long story short, diagnosed IBS in 1995 after C-section with daughter, in 2008 diagnosed Ulcerative Colitis, tried lots of medications without reaching remission, received info from John Hopkins in regards to nicotine to reach remission, so I tried nicotine patches and ordered to stop due to rapid heart rate and passing out, so I started smoking cigarettes, and within 2 months reached full remission. I remained in remission until this Spring (2012), my mom died on Feb 22nd, and then my new born grandson died on May 1st, and I believe between the stress of all that I came out of remission, I went in and had a colonoscopy (#17), and this time there was no polups, no tumors, and no angianomas, so I was happy, until the biopsies came back and said "acute UC", and "crohns".. Now I'm confussed because smoking helps with UC, but is the worst thing fo Crohns... AND, the "Biologic" class of meds offered to me, (ie. Humara, Remicade, etc) all have shown a 68% to 70% chance of getting Lymphoma cancer within 2 years of using treatment, but refusing treatment shows Crohns could be fatal due to problems arising from the Crohns, (ie. super mega colon, ruptures, infection, etc.). I am so torn and scared. I am waiting to receive 3 books I ordered on line for UC and Crohns info, and even a recipe book for these diseases. I've been trying to figure out what I can and cannot eat or drink, and I'm struggling. the pain and cramps I get are so severe I just curl up and cry, the diarrhea is fierce, and the fevers come and go throughout the whole day everyday.. Any advice of what to do, or options for treatment that I'm not aware of? any that don't have such horrible risky side effects? My doctor is exhausted on giving me antibiotics, and prednisone.. Am I mssing something, or am I really doomed.. Also, I have had no weight loss through any of this, I only have problems with malnutrition and dehydration... No one ever seems to talk about that, only the weight loss.. Is that really rare for me to be like that? I'm 40 years old, and I feel like I'm 140 years old, the achiness and joint pain is unbearable sometimes.. Any advice or suggestions are appreciated.. Please and thank you in advance..