Hi Laurie,Your reply brought tears to my eyes. It is a good feeling to know I am not alone. I wish none had to ever feel like this or go through the physical and emotional rotten feeling. I had been doing more reading on the web but stopped myself until after my appointment on Friday. It just keeps sinking me down and rather then crying my eyes out I see myself turning it inward and within minutes I am running to the closest bathroom.
Thank you again for sharing a bit of you with me. I was getting ready to put my application in at the local Adult Education to go back to school in July when I received the call and have not known what to do and after reading what you wrote I will be dropping it off tomorrow. 5 months is a long time and I guess it is something for me to look forward to as a goal to try and get better by then. At least well enough I can attend classes.
I'm glad that that you're going to submit your application for further study...it's important that you focus on something positive, and put the condition aside, as far as possible.
At first I also scoured every website and researched all I could, but the enormity of what I was facing was too daunting, so decided to find out what I needed to know to cope with the here-and-now, and move on with my life. Every now and then when it flares up, I might research some more, but I don't let it consume me.
As with your further education, I've always had an interest in photography, and always wanted to persue this. A year ago I joined a Photographic Club, and have enjoyed learning more and meeting people. It's helped me move out of my comfort zone and LIVE...I was just existing before.
I hope you soon feel the same, and don't be discouraged at the down times... "He who has not looked on sorrow, will never know joy" [Kahlil Gibran] ...good times will follow