Over tired and emotional

[Daytripper]

Hi guys and girls.
This is my first post here, I am a newbie!

I felt I needed somewhere to come where people really understand me and I can just vent my emotions! If that is okay.

I'm just so so emotional, so tired, I'm in so much pain, and I just feel like I can't live a normal life at the moment! This is so not like me. All my life I have been positive and upbeat and never felt sorry for myself. But I have been in pain for TOO long now! Does anybody else feel like they've reached breaking point? Where all of a sudden, you have been going day by day in pain and being exhausted but saying you're fine, then one day it's just piled on top of you and you crack?? And if you have, what have you done to help yourself? My only remedy is.....get into bed with painkillers, a hot water bottle and a movie! Does anybody else have any suggestions? My family are fantastic, they're great, but they don't know what it's like and I feel so guilty telling them I'm ill because I know how much they will worry, and I just feel like a fraud! It doesn't look like I'm ill, so I hate indulging in being ill....if that makes sense? Anyway, any thoughts, ideas, suggestions are more then welcome.

I promise you, I am usually a happier person than this! I'm just having a bad day.
I hope everyone out there is well tonight!

Much love. X :ghug:

 

[Dragonfly72]

I guess what I can say today, is you are not alone as I am doing the same thing and feeling the same way. Hang in there and if I can figure it out...I promise to share with you<3

Ps Welcome to the forum. Sending you a big supportive hug!!!!

Michele

 

[Jag23]

I'm sorry you're feeling down day tripper.

Maybe you need to let you're family know how you are feeling, you can't be strong all the time, let them take care of you if you want them too.

When I was going for tests I got a number I can call at the local hospital who are specialist nurses, I have rang them a couple of times and I found it very helpful. Do you have that option?

 

[Myhappyplace]

You're right in that there are times that we CAN'T live a normal life because our bodies and therefore our lives are not normal. And pain is invisible to others so they can't understand. I've been on the couch with a heating pad on my belly and tears rolling down my face and had my teen ask me what I was making him for dinner. Sometimes we need to be a bit "selfish" and just take care of ourselves. I'm still figuring out the balance between complaining and informing my family about how I'm feeling. The most helpful thing for me has actually been reading posts here. You are not alone. Just knowing that somehow helps. Sending you positive thoughts and a wish for better days very soon!

 

[Daytripper]

Thanks for the hug dragonfly! I don't know of the option to contact specialist nurses, I'll look into that, thanks for the tip. I have one nurse who looks after me, and she is so so nice, but she only works part time and it's quite difficult to get hold of her. I totally agree, one of the most helpful things for me is reading posts on here. I don't like being moody,and I don't like being moody about being moody! Haha. It's great to have a supportive family, but I don't like to burden them, I just prefer to shut myself in my room and just lie there or sleep, but I think that's what can set off feeling down because you haven't got anybody to console you. I think that is why the forums are so helpful! Thanks for your help and support. It really does mean a lot. I hope you all are feeling well soon, and I do believe we will all come out stronger because of this!

 

[Ckoenig]

If you want to hear an actual account of feeling guilty for my illness and my stress vent so you can relate I just posted it in the regular IBD discussion. I am sorry. It is hard and no nobody quite gets it but us. I'm not sure how to not feel like a burden etc and honor my feelings and strike that delicate balance.