Hi guys
Some of you may remember me, its been several months since i last posted.
Things havent changed much only that my pain on my left side has increased and is becoming more frequent. The best way I can describe it is a deep, dull, gnawing ache. I wish I could describe better how I feel and I wish there was more of a pattern. I have days, even hours where I feel like ive been run over by a bus, I just lie on the sofa shivering with every bone in my body aching. Then I have days, moments where I feel like a normal, healthy person.
Since posting I have been diagnosed with lactose intolerance and I have to admit that since changing my diet my diarreah has improved but its still there sometimes several times a day, sometimes I cant go at all. Sometimes theres blood, sometimes there isn’t. Sometimes I feel ill but don’t have pain and sometimes I have pain and don’t feel ill.
I have had a SBFT, a CT scan, pill cam and MRI scan and two colonoscopies. Everything has come back normal except the colonoscopies, they were performed by two separate consultants who both got stuck at the first turn. Splenic flexure I think? They both said it was kinked and completely closed off. The biopsies they did managed to take showed mild inflammation but nothing specific. Before the colonoscopies I did not have pain on my left side it was all on the right, now most of my pain is at the site of the kink. I just feel so disheartend im desperate for it to show up on other tests but it doesn’t and I don’t understand why. If its so kinked the scope cant get through why isn’t it showing on anything else?
I am scheduled for my third colonoscopy next Thursday to see if the consultant can get any further but he doesn’t think he will and im so frightened Ill just be told its IBS and my bowel is going in to spasm and be left to get on with it.
Im sure IBS is a horrible condition but would my bowel really kink that much with it and would I feel so poorly at times?
I feel so alone, I hate talking about it to people that don’t know how I feel because I know they just don’t understand. Sometimes I feel like people think im a wimp or a faker when all these tests are normal but I know in my heart of hearts something is wrong.
I cried my eyes out in my last consultants appointment as he started to suggest my problems were lactose intolerance and I know that’s not the case. How can I go weeks sometimes a couple of months at a time feeling ok and then bang, a bolt out of the blue it hits me despite me not changing my diet.
Don’t get me wrong my consultant is great but there are only so many normal tests I can have before he says “your normal, go away”
Love a very deflated Clover
x
Some of you may remember me, its been several months since i last posted.
Things havent changed much only that my pain on my left side has increased and is becoming more frequent. The best way I can describe it is a deep, dull, gnawing ache. I wish I could describe better how I feel and I wish there was more of a pattern. I have days, even hours where I feel like ive been run over by a bus, I just lie on the sofa shivering with every bone in my body aching. Then I have days, moments where I feel like a normal, healthy person.
Since posting I have been diagnosed with lactose intolerance and I have to admit that since changing my diet my diarreah has improved but its still there sometimes several times a day, sometimes I cant go at all. Sometimes theres blood, sometimes there isn’t. Sometimes I feel ill but don’t have pain and sometimes I have pain and don’t feel ill.
I have had a SBFT, a CT scan, pill cam and MRI scan and two colonoscopies. Everything has come back normal except the colonoscopies, they were performed by two separate consultants who both got stuck at the first turn. Splenic flexure I think? They both said it was kinked and completely closed off. The biopsies they did managed to take showed mild inflammation but nothing specific. Before the colonoscopies I did not have pain on my left side it was all on the right, now most of my pain is at the site of the kink. I just feel so disheartend im desperate for it to show up on other tests but it doesn’t and I don’t understand why. If its so kinked the scope cant get through why isn’t it showing on anything else?
I am scheduled for my third colonoscopy next Thursday to see if the consultant can get any further but he doesn’t think he will and im so frightened Ill just be told its IBS and my bowel is going in to spasm and be left to get on with it.
Im sure IBS is a horrible condition but would my bowel really kink that much with it and would I feel so poorly at times?
I feel so alone, I hate talking about it to people that don’t know how I feel because I know they just don’t understand. Sometimes I feel like people think im a wimp or a faker when all these tests are normal but I know in my heart of hearts something is wrong.
I cried my eyes out in my last consultants appointment as he started to suggest my problems were lactose intolerance and I know that’s not the case. How can I go weeks sometimes a couple of months at a time feeling ok and then bang, a bolt out of the blue it hits me despite me not changing my diet.
Don’t get me wrong my consultant is great but there are only so many normal tests I can have before he says “your normal, go away”
Love a very deflated Clover
x