Wrote this couple years ago....

[cnt]

Just stumbled on the poem below that I wrote a couple of years ago. Feeling once again the way I felt when I wrote it. Dealing with a flare up right now and on top of that most likely have kidney stones in both kidneys. I go to my urologist Friday to find out for sure.

Just feeling so defeated right now. Trying to stay positive but it's getting harder and harder to. Anyway, came across the below poem and figured I'd share it here too...

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Tired

Tired of the pain, the cramps, the nausea and aching bones.
Tired of my good days wondering how long it can last, a day, a week, a month, a year? (wouldn't that be great)

Tired of the loneliness this disease brings
Tired of being around a lot of people, who despite their best efforts, just can't understand.

Tired of hospitals, the doctors, the nurses, the liquid diets and the IVs
Tired of being home wondering when I will be in there again.

Tired of not being able to give T the life she deserves, missing practices, games, matches and anything for my boys.

Tired of looking in a mirror and not recognizing the face of skin and bones looking back at me.

Tired of putting on my happy face when I'm really dying inside

Tired of always having to find the strength, courage and fight, just to live a somewhat normal life.

But most of all, I'm just tired of being so tired.
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[ronroush7]

Hang in there.

 

[fuzzy butterfly]

Love n support. Its awful when in a flare but it can get better as i guess you know. Hope things improve quickly for you..

 

[cnt]

Thanks

 

[ronroush7]

Hope things get better

 

[cnt]

Thanks

 

[smt]

Nice poetry. Brings out the trials and tribulations of a Crohn's patient. I can relate to this most of all:

Tired of putting on my happy face when I'm really dying inside

Tired of always having to find the strength, courage and fight, just to live a somewhat normal life.

Just shows the sort of talent this forum has and the extent to which its members fight to keep on going. Feeling proud to be a member here.

 

[cnt]

Thanks smt! Yeah, it's tough to have to wake up every day knowing it's another day of trying to make it through and hoping the pain can at least be somewhat bearable to get through the day. So exhausting!