A Little Depressed

[olumay]

I guess i am telling you guys this because i think you might be able to relate to me. Since i have been diagnosed with Crohn's, it has taken over my life. i was in and out of the hospital in 2008, i ended up staying 3 months there because after my resection i had a drug interaction where i could not walk for a while because my muscles were inflammed. I am glad i am doing much better although i have to start using Remicade now. i guess my issue is the fact that i am almost never really happy anymore. i used to be a lot of fun but now i feel all my friends and family see is this disease and i feel like it is robbing me of everything that makes me, me.
Is anyone else feeling this way please, i need to know that i am not loosing my mind.

 

[Jennjenn]

You are not loosing your mind Olumay. Its just a tough time that you are going through. When I was having all of my surgeries and there were a lot of complications, I was an emotional wreck at that time. Now I just try to see the positive things in life and feel good about what I have overcome in the past. Dont get me wrong I still have my rough patches that I go through. I am sure a lot of people can relate to that. You will get back to being you..I cannot say how long it might take, but it will happen...I know that struggle too well Hopefully the Remicade will start to help you!

 

[shazamataz]

Hi Olumay, I totally understand! I haven't had it as bad as it sounds you have Crohn'swise but I have been having issues with depresion since diagnosis in July. I know a lot of it is the steroids but also coming to terms with having this thing and it is scary! So, you are not alone in feeling depressed. Once you realise it is okay and somewhat 'normal' it makes it seem less overwhelming.
Are you on any medication for it? I gave in a month ago and started taking an SSRI to help and I think it has made a bit of a difference.
Shaz

 

[Guestly]

Hi Olumay, I havent been anywhere near sick as you but I totally relate to losing your mind!

I am angry that the vivacious person I once was has been consumed by her own bowels.

You are not alone - lots of good people on this forum to support you.

Keep fighting

Lishyloo x

 

[CrohnieCarolyn]

I know that after my surgery while I was in the hospital I just was overwhelmed and started crying - I don't cry easily and I can totally relate girl...hang in there and things WILL get better ...

 

[Guest]

hi Olumay, and welcome to the forum.

i understand how you're feeling, have been there too - it's a weird thing to get your head around unless you've actually been there, but there's been times in my life when i've looked at myself in the mirror and wondered where 'me' has gone.

i think you're just mentally reeling from everything that's happened to you.. and when you've been in such a bad place physically, the emotions don't miraculously revert to normal the minute our bodies start to feel better.. we need to allow ourselves time to accept what's happened and nurture ourselves a bit.

i think you'll find that in time, when you've reached little milestones like going shopping on your own, going out with friends etc., slowly, slowly you'll start to feel like your old self again, and dare to feel more confident & happy.

i hope you stay around here, this place is fantastic for support, understanding, and giggles

 

[Peaches]

Hi Olumay!! You are not alone with these feelings. I have gone through periods of feeling this way as well. I tend to be a positive person - and sometimes I just can't seem to drag my butt out of that dark place. And guess what - it seems to be when my disease is at its worst! You have just gone through a really rough time sounds like. I'm hoping things will turn the corner for you and your disease will quiet down so you can be bright and shiny again!! That *you* is in there - you'll find her again!

 

[kasper87]

hey. Take it from everyone else here. The best thing you can do for yourself is to look at others who have been through it all as well. Try to get inspired. No matter what, I learned that You can get through things.

Im only 22, Male With Crohn's Of 9 years. Never seen a remission. Osteoporosis. 6 feet tall only 115 pounds.
Had a PICC line for TPN for 3 months.. and on top of it.. my lower back is KILLING me.. Can barely walk or put my arms out in front of me.

But my sister keeps telling me.. Your a soldier and I have no IDEA how you do it..
Keeps me going.

I hope you find your inspiration.

 

[CrohnsHobo]

Everyday I just tell myself that there are a lot of people in this world a lot worse off than I am. Our plight really really sucks, but it could be worse.

Being sick all the time it can be hard to be optimistic all the time, but trying really helps me get through the days.

 

[bruscar]

Hi Olumay and welcome,

You hang in ther my friend, what you are feeling is perfectly normal.

I am now nearly 5 years into my own medical nightmare and i went through exactly the same feelings that you are now experiencing.

Time is a great healer, and we are all here for you anytime for a big big hug.

You will get there and thats a promise.

Bruscar

 

[imisspopcorn]

Hi Olumay....You are not alone. You are not loosing your mind. It's so hard to feel good mentally when things suck physically. I hope you feel better.

 

[olumay]

Thank you so much for your encouragement, i am glad that i have you guys because i can't really tell my family and friends about my feelings. i don't think they would understand. i am glad i can be honest with you on this website.
My first infusion with Remicade is tomorrow, i know by God's grace everything will go well.

 

[Jennjenn]

I hope the Remicade will help with your symptoms Olumay and get you on the road to feeling better.

 

[Sue-2009]

I know the haunts of depression. I certainly have not had the bout you had..But, given what you have been through of course your depressed and overwhelmed. Get some medications if you can.....Stay focused...Stay Postings....Stay Strong...Sue