Back In the Hospital - Again!

[MisB]

Hey everyone. Woke up Friday Morning hugging the toilet, took nausau meds, waited a while, hugged toilet again. You know how much I love my toilet, I hug it so much. I was so ill I couldn't even take my meds. My husband called and said either I call the dr. or he was calling. So, I called my doctor, my husband came home, took me to the doctors office, and he did a direct admin to the hospital. I've had an ultrassound of my gallbladder, which came back negative, I think, they haven't really said anything. Did a CT scan last night without the contrast 'cause I couldn't get the contrastt down. So, this morning, after a night of nausua medicine on a regular schedule, I was able to keep the contrast down and drank every drop like a good girl. They got much better pictures. All the pain and problems seem to be the cancer. Apparently none of this flare from the beginning has been Crohn's. I feel like such a fraud now here. :lol: I've been crying to all of you about this badd Crohn's flare and the whole time it's been cancer. I still have Crohn's, but it's in remissionl. I hope you all forgive me. I am going to keep checking here, but I'm getting ready for chemotherapy andd I think I'm going to try to find a support group for that. I know it won't be as good a group as here, but I think I'm going to need people that have gone through chemo to help get me through this. I'm getting very scared and nervous about this cancer..

Anyway, I'm just now up to typing and wanted to touch base. You are all such wonderful people and I will be in and out, but probably not quite as much. Of course, I say that and then I miss you guys and I'm in here 3 or 4 times a day. So, I guess once a day willl have to do for a while. If anyone here has had to go through chemo and feels like sharing, please let me know. I need all the help I can get right now.

I'll keep ya'll posted on my condition as we go and when I get to go home. More soon. Best to everyonel

 

[gypsigirl28]

HI BEV... You should never feel like a fraud here, no matter what the problem ended up being it is still a problem and we are here for you!!! besides you did not know it wasnt the crohns being that you did not know you had cancer. i am thinking about you daily and you are always in our prayers. You are our sunshine and I hope everything turns out for you and you get the chemo started asap. Lots of love and hugs to you and your family.

 

[DustyKat]

Hey MisB,

Forgive you for what??? For something that is out of your hands, you don't need to ask for our forgiveness because there is nothing to forgive. Remember you still have Crohns and we remain your friends and family regardless of any issues or health problems you have outside of that. We are here for the whole Bev not just the Crohns Bev. I wish you all the luck in world as you embark on your journey with chemotherapy and please keep us posted when you are able as we will all be thinking about you.................

:goodluck: My friend.

Always thinking about you,
Dusty

 

[Guest]

Bev - you're one of us, you have been right from the beginning, and you always will be..... no matter what - ok?

i completely understand (and agree) about needing to find people who can support you with this particular journey, we all know important it is to feel we can reach out to those who've been through what we're going through - but please don't think it has to be either/or.

your friends here will always be here for you.. and no matter how often or little you log in, we are all thinking of you and sending get better wishes to you.

((big hugs)) Bev - i hope the chemo can get started asap and that you cope with it ok, and it gives you back a painfree and worryfree life. xxx

 

[Cat-a-Tonic]

Bev, I agree with what Rosemary, Dusty, and Ding have said above - no need to apologize and you are not a fraud. We'll still be here for you anytime you need us.

As far as a chemo/cancer support group, I haven't been through the experience of cancer myself, but I know that Gilda's Club does a lot as far as support groups and information. http://www.gildasclub.org/ I'm not sure where in Florida you are, but it looks like they have a location in Fort Lauderdale.

 

[MapleLeafGirl]

Bev - I agree with all of the others. We love having you on here. You are a true treasure. Thinking of you.

 

[gringo43]

MisB I'm a newbie here but I can tell you that reading your story had a lot to do with me finally deciding to participate here..I wish you all the best on your path of treatment. Thanks for all you do here.

 

[Dexky]

Bev??? You are someone all of us have come to care about deeply!!! You've been in serious pain and discomfort for what? 40 plus days now??? We don't care what the source of that pain is!!! We all love you Bev and only want what's best for you!!! Please, keep us informed on your chemo and, if you are up to it, I'm sure we'd all be interested in things you may learn from being in another support group. Take care Bev!! I wish you the best and you deserve no less!!

 

[Crohn's 35]

Too late cause we already love you and you have been there for us and you are part of our family!! Don't you dare even think of leaving us, it would break our hearts!

I really hope you can get your cancer in remission and we are there to help you, as much as we can!!! :kiss:

 

[dreamintwilight]

I'm so sorry to hear all these problems are cancer-related. I wish they would have known that long ago when it started, but at least now they know and they can concentrate on how to treat you properly.

I agree wither others about not needing to apologize. If you had known it was cancer giving you problems rather than having another Crohn's flare-up, we may not have been fortunate to have you on the board here! You've been such a blessing to many people on the forum here, so don't apologize! God has a plan for you and I think it's safe to say that part of that is to inspire and touch people along the way with your story of strength and determination! You are a gem, Bev! Look forward to hearing from you on the board, however sporadic that may be, and hope we stay in touch through Facebook still! Still praying for you... Lots of love and hugs!

 

[Astra]

Dear Bev

I hope you're ok? so sorry to hear this distressing news. Really hope you can find a great support forum, but in the meantime, you're NOT gonna leave us! AND don't ever apologise for being a fraud, we don't wanna hear that.
You're a huge part of this family, and a great contributor in helping people, and so inspirational too!
really hope your chemo gets started soon and is painfree and successful.
I don't pray as a rule, but I might just give Him a shout tonight, just for you my friend!
Big huge hugs Bev, love as always
Joan xxxxxxxx

 

[Jer's Girl]

Just wanted to say that you are in all of our thoughts. Hope you find some relief for your Crohns and your Cancer soon.

 

[DustyKat]

Update from FB!!!!!!

To everyone who is friends with Beverly on FB (Facebook)and CF (crohns Forum), This is Bev's husband Jeff, first off, thank you everyone for all the prayers and good thoughts. Now update; Beverly is doing great since this past Thursday. I will now continue under comments to bring everyone who hasn't heard the latest.

She had a blood clot in her right leg that was from just above her ankle to the middle of her abdomen. Dr's on Thursday inserted a catheter to administer what they call a "Clot Buster" type of medication. It was touch and go for 24hrs as to whether the medication would work, if it didn't she would have lost her leg. Thanks to all the praying everyone has done, she is doing wonderful, although she is still in ICU as of today and will be in there probably until Monday. No internal bleeding as of now, since this med is so potent of a blood thinner, but they need to keep a 24 hour eye on her just in case. Off subject, I had a more detailed update typed out and FB decided to delete the whole thing b4 I was finished typing so this is what y'all are getting for now. Again, thank you all for the prayers and thoughts for my wife. God does answer them when you least expect it. More info later.
God Bless.

Dusty.

 

[Entchen]

Dear Jeff: Thank you for this update. I'll continue to pray for Good Things for all of you during what has to be such a trying time.

 

[Dexky]

Thanks Dusty for relaying!!!

 

[Crohn's 35]

Thank you Jeff for the update, we all are worried of Bev. I am sending you both prayers and hugs, it must be so nerve racking for you too.

Thanks Dusty for posting this!

 

[joe1984]

Thanks so much for the update. I will keep Bev and you in my prayers.