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Hi everyone this is my first time doing this, I have Crohns and I feel instead of me beating it, it's beating me. How does anyone with Crohn's lead a normal life??It seems the more I try the more I fail. Most days now I just wonder why am I here. I just want to have the life I had before.:redface:
 
I know how you feel. I have just been back to the consultant and he gave me some hope. Do not put up with feeling bad keep going back to the medics to get some help. It has paid off for me.
 
Hi Tammy - I'm sorry you're having so much trouble with your Crohn's, but I'm glad you found this site - there's really great info on here.

How long have you had Crohn's? And what meds are you on? Maybe you need something more/different?

As for the normal life stuff - on of my worst problems with my Crohn's is constant fatigue, so I totally understand your frustration! But then again there are lots of people who get to feeling really good with the right combo of meds/time/diet/etc - there's a subforum called "success stories" on here that's really encouraging.

Anyway, as you feel comfortable if you share all the "gory details" there are great people on here who really take the time to offer great knowledge and advice.
 
Oh I know the fatigue...I was taught to walk as my legs broke down I walk better but still can't do the stairs. They have me on Pentasa 500mg2- 3 times daily,Amitriptyline 1 at bedtime, as well as Ranitidine and Depression meds
They started me off on steroids but Bloated like no tomorrow .
 
Yeah, it's rough when you're so weak. Are you able to eat? I'm not familiar with all your meds, but I know that Pentasa isn't very "high powered". And are you taking the steroids now? Everyone's different, but it seem that for me nothing stops my flares except for prednisone.

Is your doctor a GI doctor? And do you have an appt scheduled?
 
I went through 2 GI's the first looked at me as if I had 4 heads as to why I didn't bring a history of paperwork ( every visit ) and the meds I take. It's suppose to be in their file but the paper work was never there, and talked too quickly I couldn't get a word in and I never understood why he kept saying the same thing all the time like you have Crohns this is where it is. ok I know where it is now move on! I even brought my husband and he couldn't believe it. The second was going fine until they sent me to the hospital because on lower abdominal pain I knew it was my ependix because it only hurt to touch not to release but it was like just to shut me up send me there. So I've just been going to my DR.
As for eating it seems that I'm so so ok until I eat, but I have to eat but at times I don't want to but am hungry unless I'm blocked it's like having contractions .
 
Aw, I'm sorry you've had such bad experiences with those GI docs! I've been through quite a few bad doctors and it's horribly frustrating!!!!

That was funny that you mentioned the doc thinking you were crazy for not bringing paperwork... I've had docs look at me like I was crazy because I did bring paperwork! Argh! Guess we just can't win!

Does your general doctor know of any good GI docs to refer you to? Even if your general doctor is great, IBD is so complicated that it really might take a good GI doc to get your Crohn's under control. But if your general doctor is good maybe s/he could help you find a good specialist so that it wouldn't be so stressful for you.
 
Oh, and eating... have you found any "safe" foods for you? In the Diet forum, there's a sticky post about safe/unsafe foods - that might be a place to start if you need some ideas.

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HI there tammy, and Welcome to the forum. i know it's tough having crohn's i have been battling for 21 years and counting. Like the others said find yourself a good geniune GI specialist and who is very sincere about your condition. If you are have trouble eating at the moment put yourself on a liquid diet for a while drink stuff like boost, ensure or any nutritional drinks and plenty of water to keep your self hydrated.This forum is very supportive and very well knowledged. so, you not alone in this. so, if you have any questions just post away and i am sure the forum will respond. best wishes
 
Thank you so much guys I thought I was stuck on the pills they gave me but I'm going to ask about the Remicade (thx mainegirl93) but its not to help with flareups? as well or what exactly is it then? Scott is that ALL for the crohns?? how come there are so many?
And Inky thx for the idea on GI I did get the ones I went to through him though and he said that they're the closest to me. I'm in the Mississauga Area does anyone know of any around here?
 
Hi Tammy! It sure can be tough to get through some days. But many of us live normal, happy, and productive lives. We have our challenges, but who doesn't?! But of course, you want to feel as well as you possibly can, and it doesn't sound like your doctors are helping you the best they can. There are many different treatment options out there, and your doctors should have discussed them with you.

You should really do some homework in the Treatment forum. Read up about the different options, and then reach out to your GI to discuss possible new treatment plan. You need to be proactive about your health. Good luck!
 
So Sorry, I know your pain

Hi Tammy, welcome to the group. I've only been here for a couple of months and have only written two post, but this seems like a great place for support. Like you, I have had a couple of crappy drs. but finally found one about 45mins from where I live. I've been with him 16yrs or more and he actually sits there and hears me out on any questions I may have or any ideas I have about my treatment. That is one inpearative thing you must do-be involved in your treatment. If the dr. won't let you then there's a clue he a sucky dr. I do personally keep a list on my Word Documents that list my meds by who prescribes them and what they are for, the dose, how many times I take it, and when I started the drug. Then the next sheet is my allergies/ bad reactions to meds; which I list the med and the reaction I had to it, and last is my surgeries pages. For them I list the date, the surgery, little details about the surgery, the surgeon, and the hospital. I know it seems like a lot of work, but once you have it on your computer you can easily change anything, and easily print it out for every dr. you go to, not just your GI dr. so they are all informed about what you take and don't put you on something that will react badly with what you are already taking.
Also Like it was said before prednisone sucks monkey butt, but it does work great for Crohn's flare-ups. It usually makes me depressed, moody to the point I don't wanna be around anyone, and they sure don't wanna be around me, it also makes me swell up and gain weight like there's no tomorrow, and last but not least makes me so hungry constantly even when I am full, I still feel hungry. It sucks, luckly I'm not on that anymore, but only because they had me on it so lone it caused me to have osteopenia. Ask about Entacort (sp?) it's a steriod just usually without most of the side effects of prednisone.
Also if Remicade doesn't help you, I been on Humeria for yrs now, and have had very few flare-ups since. Pentasa alone isn't going to work just by itself. There is also a drug called Asacol, and another I can't live with out is Immuran. I got off of a lot of my Crohn's drugs with the help of Humira, Immuran, an ant-acid drug, and a nausea med. I've been super lucky about that. I believe a true symtom of Crohn's Disease is depression. I've been battling with that for yrs., but one you get on all the right meds (which may take some time due to trial and error) you will have good days again.
I let Crohn's beat me for at least 3yrs, so I do understand what you're going through with that, but once they changed some of my meds around I put my foot down and said no more! I don't live a normal life, I don't understand what a normal life is when you're a Crohn's patient, but there are good days ahead, that I promise you. Just don't let it take hope from you. I am currently diable by law due to my illnesses and it sucks BIG time, I loved working. It wasn't really work to me, but more so a hobby. Anyway I am taking classes, a few at a time at a community college and I just graduated with my associates this past May. Now I am still taking some classes at the community college, but they are pre-requisits for Radiology tech. I have hope of working again. Hope is sometimes the only thing that's getting you by, but at least it's something. I still have bad days, I still have to go to the emergency room for acute pain that just won't go away, I still get strictures, but I've got good drs. getting me through it, and I still have hope. I know it's hard as hell, but please don't give up. Remember the good things you still have in your life. Take each day one at a time, that's all you can do. Also if you're in a lot of pain all the time then talk to your dr. about seeing a pain managment specialist. That helps too, lol.
I will quit my ramblings, but again don't give up, don't let hope slip away, there are better days ahead (though it may not seem like it now, there is). Please take care Tammy.
 
Thank you so much guys I thought I was stuck on the pills they gave me but I'm going to ask about the Remicade (thx mainegirl93) but its not to help with flareups? as well or what exactly is it then? Scott is that ALL for the crohns?? how come there are so many?
And Inky thx for the idea on GI I did get the ones I went to through him though and he said that they're the closest to me. I'm in the Mississauga Area does anyone know of any around here?

Hi Tammy I used to live in Mississauga but after that, Brampton again and my Gi was DR. B Sachedina, he is in the new Brampton hospital, he may have a long waiting time but he is worth it...I owe him my life, because he fought for me.:thumleft: Hope you can get in...but always have a doc handy. I moved too far away to go to him now but I have a good one now too, there are so many bad ones out there.:hallo3: Good luck!
 
Tammy, I'm new today too and wanted to say hello. Sometimes I hang on by the finger nails - which are now tattered and broken and sometimes I revel in just the peace of not hurting or looking like I'm 9 months pregnant. You know - I've been reading differing forums today from success stories, to lonesome, to "I'm halfway there and hopeful." All I can do now is hang on until my doctors find what works for me and until then - I am going to hang onto the hope on these pages. hugs to you - Lynne
 
Tammy and others...

Find a good specialist! I actually go to Mayo Clinic. I was referred to Mayo Clinic or The Cleveland Clinic by a welll respected surgeon in my area. They can work you up there like no other place! But, I also have a local GI that followed their lead and guidelines. You have to read and demand! Read as much info as you can, and demand your docs listen to you! I even request my own blood work. Full blood work up is essential. And, even allgergy testing. Not just for seasonal stuff, food allergies. I could not believe what I found out. Im allergic to eggs. They wanted me to go back on Prednisone and Immuran, they didnt think my Remicade was working. At the same time I just happen to be seeing my allergy doc trying to get my sinus under control when he suggested testing food. I am allergis to eggs, brewers yeast, and ragweed. I stopped eating eggs, and suddenly my gut aches stopped. I never did go back on Prednisone and Immuran. Still just on my remicade. But I also follow a strict diet, and everyone is different. Each person has different triggers. If you get full blood work done, ask for a copy. I took my to a blood specialist, who pointed out all kinds of things. Like I dont produce enough of a certain thing in my blood and system so thats why I can break down red meat, no wonder I always feel sick after and get tons of gas. Even a good natural doc who is into nutrition. Good book I read was Restoring Your Digestive Health. A-Z on how the digestive tract works. And the depression and anxiety comes along with it all, our gut has chemicals only found elsewhere in our brain. Ever get butter flies in your stomach... our gut basically has its own central nervous system. I had bad bouts of anxiety and depression until I got my gut under control and my diet. Now I can honestly say I have not in years. Step by Step is all I can say. You need good rest, low stess, exercise, good diet, and find a good doc.
 
hello everyone, I haven't been on because I was sick today was bad and on top of things I think I may have a cold yippee thought it was allergies or maybe both, I went to my doctor and ask if Pentasa was the strongest I can get and he said yes, granted he's just my family dr not my GI still looking around. Wow do I ever know what your saying about looking like Im pregnant I'm actually bigger now then when I was pregnant HA go figure I am glad that I didn't get sick back then though there's no way I could have done that and still have the energy to be a single mom my hats off to the moms out there who do, I guess you get that inner strength but anyhow.

I actually got sick about 10 years ago but didn't know it. I would look at my stomach after eating and you would literally see it rolling like as if there was a baby in there, at the time my boyfriend said um ok this is to weird for me and left I never seen him again...lol they thought I had IBS took all the tests, kept getting sick and everyone thought I was crazy and I was making it up omg that time I finally got diagnosed I just yelled out I KNEW IT! and SEE I TOLD YOU!!
It was very frustrating at my work when they'd tease me about going to the bathroom allot and or oh she's sick again!! taking time off work, then had to quit, cause I went from being able to go from one end of the store to another in a few seconds to literally impossible. walking, standing showing bathing getting dressed all things I couldn't do.
I haven't have a cycle in months! 9 or 10 at least so I 'm sure I'm pre menopausal I cut all my hair cause I'm always sweating...oh boy have to go have to welll you know.

thank you everyone btw big big hugs

xoxo
 
Good luck Tanny! Its a roller coster and the ride can get long. But really find a GI specialist. I have a fantastic and very smart family doc, but even she has me to go to a GI doc.
 
Hi & Welcome Tammy,

So sorry to hear of your difficult times although from my experience and others here you probably got some satisfaction when diagnosed - it's a releif to know that you were not going crazy and that you have a condition that requires regular visits to GI specialists especially when flaring.
Hope you find a good doctor and get put on the road to recovery ASAP.
You mention sweating - I haven't been on depression medication for some time but when I was it made me get very sweaty for no aparent reason at times.
Make sure you get plenty of rest and take note of any foods that make you feel worse or likewise foods that you can tollerate and remember to replace lost those fluids.
I think you deserve a medal being a single mum and living with crohns!!

Take care and try not to get too worried or stressed as hard as it may be. Take each day at a time and things will improve for you I'm sure.

Regards
Sandy
 
HI tammy, yes to your question , all medications are for my crohn's and none of it at the moment seems to be helping except the oxycodone for pain. but, i have to wait till November to see my GI specialist, so hopefully i can get on some new medication that will work this time. This is my second flare up in 15 years but, this one seems to be lasting longer and more painful than the last one so something is up, so, i have got to go and see him asap. but, like i said i have to wait till then. best wishes.
 

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