So to update everyone right now I am not diagnosed but I have a strong family history of crohns. I have been having symptoms since April. Tomorrow is my first GI appointment. I have kept my head up for almost two months about this appointment. I said its better to know then not. Tomorrow I will travel two hours by myself to this appointment. I guess right now I am scared. I am trying not to worry to much because when I do I will get sick. I guess I know the challenges I will have if I am diagnosed. I am currently a smoker and know I have to quit. Knowing that I know the risk of having more children is not an option. I have two healthy kids and I am ok with that. It's I guess one thing to say I am done and my body telling me no. Just saying all of this out loud is a weight of my chest. I have tried not to talk about all the risk with crohns with my husband or my fears with it. I guess it's like I want to be diagnosed first. Having a Uncle that has passed away from having both crohns and colitis, then anothe Uncle that has a lot of issues with his, it's just a lot I don't want to throw at him.
Thank you for this forum because it helps me just out it down in writing what I fear and am scared about that I can't express to a lot of people.
Thank you for this forum because it helps me just out it down in writing what I fear and am scared about that I can't express to a lot of people.