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Hi guys.
So, many of you will know my back story and know how long I've been struggling to get this beast of an illness under control. After a promising start on Vedolizumab, it appears the wheels have once again began to fall off the wagon.
Initially, I experienced a decrease in pain, my weight started going up and for the first time since my early teens I was actually maintaining a healthy weight. I began to get a better appetite and the nausea that's plagued me for years seemed to be starting to disappear. Alas, it seems it was not to last.
At the start, it just seemed like my infusions had just been wearing off, as we all know this is fairly common with biologics, so it didn't alarm me and was more of an inconvenience than anything else. Recently though, I haven't been picking back up after the infusions the way I was before, and I've been in really severe pain much more often. I'm loosing weight again, I have little to no appetite and my vitamins, especially folate, are starting to tank.
I saw my IBD nurse last week and shes done some blood tests and we did a stool sample to check for information. The stool sample takes 2-4 weeks to come back so it'll be a little while before we know if it shows anything. In the mean time, shes worried enough to put me back on steroids, something we've been really trying to avoid for ages because I struggle so much coming off them and I've already got osteopenia. Thankfully though it is budesonide so at least the side effects won't be quite so bad, although the trade off is they are much slower to work.
If there are signs of inflammation in the testing, then it looks like we may need to do more imaging (although MRIs have been distinctly unreliable for me) or another colonoscopy.
Depending on the results, we may be able to increase my infusions to every 4-6 weeks but this needs approval from a multi-disciplinary team which is pretty hard to get because the infusions cost so much.
If they decide to take me off the vedo, then the only other option currently available is stelera, which is incredibly difficult to get onto at the moment because its over £2000 a dose and they're concerned about some of the side effects that the few patients that are taking it have been showing.
This is all getting pretty frustrating now. I was diagnosed 5 years ago and its been a constant fight ever since ( I've had symptoms for almost 10 years now). I've had to prove how sick I am at every turn, and to be honest that could well be happening again if my IBD nurse can't convince the other clinicians that I need help.
I feel incredibly isolated because people around me really don't understand this illness, its not that they don't care, they just apparently can't get their heads around the different treatments and potential complications. Its almost as if they think I can pop a pill and be fine in a few days.. they still don't really comprehend that this is not going to go away. I spend most of my time at home alone because everyone works, and when they get home they're too tired to look at information or even really talk about things properly and then on the weekends they're always out seeing other family members (often without inviting me) or shopping etc. I constantly hide how lonely and left out I am because when I do speak up its taken as an insult rather than me reaching out for help. I don't think theres anyone that actually understands how much pain I'm in at the moment, with the exception of my fiance who unfortunately lives too far away to come help all the time (not through his choice). :stinks:
So, many of you will know my back story and know how long I've been struggling to get this beast of an illness under control. After a promising start on Vedolizumab, it appears the wheels have once again began to fall off the wagon.
Initially, I experienced a decrease in pain, my weight started going up and for the first time since my early teens I was actually maintaining a healthy weight. I began to get a better appetite and the nausea that's plagued me for years seemed to be starting to disappear. Alas, it seems it was not to last.
At the start, it just seemed like my infusions had just been wearing off, as we all know this is fairly common with biologics, so it didn't alarm me and was more of an inconvenience than anything else. Recently though, I haven't been picking back up after the infusions the way I was before, and I've been in really severe pain much more often. I'm loosing weight again, I have little to no appetite and my vitamins, especially folate, are starting to tank.
I saw my IBD nurse last week and shes done some blood tests and we did a stool sample to check for information. The stool sample takes 2-4 weeks to come back so it'll be a little while before we know if it shows anything. In the mean time, shes worried enough to put me back on steroids, something we've been really trying to avoid for ages because I struggle so much coming off them and I've already got osteopenia. Thankfully though it is budesonide so at least the side effects won't be quite so bad, although the trade off is they are much slower to work.
If there are signs of inflammation in the testing, then it looks like we may need to do more imaging (although MRIs have been distinctly unreliable for me) or another colonoscopy.
Depending on the results, we may be able to increase my infusions to every 4-6 weeks but this needs approval from a multi-disciplinary team which is pretty hard to get because the infusions cost so much.
If they decide to take me off the vedo, then the only other option currently available is stelera, which is incredibly difficult to get onto at the moment because its over £2000 a dose and they're concerned about some of the side effects that the few patients that are taking it have been showing.
This is all getting pretty frustrating now. I was diagnosed 5 years ago and its been a constant fight ever since ( I've had symptoms for almost 10 years now). I've had to prove how sick I am at every turn, and to be honest that could well be happening again if my IBD nurse can't convince the other clinicians that I need help.
I feel incredibly isolated because people around me really don't understand this illness, its not that they don't care, they just apparently can't get their heads around the different treatments and potential complications. Its almost as if they think I can pop a pill and be fine in a few days.. they still don't really comprehend that this is not going to go away. I spend most of my time at home alone because everyone works, and when they get home they're too tired to look at information or even really talk about things properly and then on the weekends they're always out seeing other family members (often without inviting me) or shopping etc. I constantly hide how lonely and left out I am because when I do speak up its taken as an insult rather than me reaching out for help. I don't think theres anyone that actually understands how much pain I'm in at the moment, with the exception of my fiance who unfortunately lives too far away to come help all the time (not through his choice). :stinks: