Yesterday I had a follow-up appointment with my GI, going over meds and the past 1 1/2 months of surgeries and healing (hemis, fissures, and fistulas). He isn't quite sure I am ready to go back to work the beginning of January, so I have to go back to the surgeon for another follow-up next week. He also discussed other things if this fistula doesn't begin to close in a few weeks. I never understood how limiting this can be, until now. This and the bowel incontinence since the first surgery in November.
He filled out paperwork for me to receive a disability sticker for my car...so humbling and I should feel grateful, but I am feeling ashamed. He was great about it and was in complete agreeance that I should use it. Silent illnesses seem to get overlooked by so many. It's like we should have an obvious "look" about us to receive extra help. For me the incontinence and the fatigue has been overwhelming, but to acknowledge that yes, I do need that extra help, I guess I am just having a difficult time accepting it. Anyone else feel this way? I almost feel like I have given up on myself. Just a little down this evening...
He filled out paperwork for me to receive a disability sticker for my car...so humbling and I should feel grateful, but I am feeling ashamed. He was great about it and was in complete agreeance that I should use it. Silent illnesses seem to get overlooked by so many. It's like we should have an obvious "look" about us to receive extra help. For me the incontinence and the fatigue has been overwhelming, but to acknowledge that yes, I do need that extra help, I guess I am just having a difficult time accepting it. Anyone else feel this way? I almost feel like I have given up on myself. Just a little down this evening...
