Hello, super sorry you are hurting. It can be so awful. Each one can very SO much. The first one I had was a nightmare of pain. I would scream with each bm. Then it had issues, won't go into details but I actually found something that helped. Organic barley green, powder form - 2x a day. Mixed with grape juice. Sounds crazy but it was the only thing I changed and started healing. I was doing sitz baths constantly then in epsom salt after the first few days then added aloe to the warm water too. A peri bottle was bery useful, ask for one if you don't have one. Keep the area as clean as possible. Buy some cotton washcloths to use to pat dry after warm water rinse after each bathroom use. Do not use wipes, most have alcohol and will most likely sting. Eat soft foods, easy to digest. Non acidic, no spicy, no grain fiber. Think applesauce, mashed potatoes , pudding, Nutrition drinks, etc.
The next one I had was so much different. Way less pain. I think the location makes a lot of difference and how complex they are. I was so afraid it was going to be like the first one. It is why they can each be so different.
Hang in there. I hope you start feeling better very soon.
