Hate this dumb disease

[Awbrey]

I dont know if im just a big baby but I really really hate having Crohns I feel like it has consumed my life. I use to work out go have drinks with friends be an active mom and own a preschool. Now I have to pull myself out of bed usually with a vicoden because it is the only thing that gives me energy. I have gained 40lbs because I dont even want to work out the thought of it exhausts me. I will always tell myself that tomorrow will be the day I will get on my elliptical or take the dogs for a walk :-( has not happened for 1 year. My nights consist of laying in bed at 7 my legs hurt like I have growing pains in them I have no idea what it is the docs are clueless. Going to work has become a struggle and I feel like a bad mom because I can't physical do the things with my children that I want to do. Sex has become a chore because I feel like crap all the time. My social time with my friends are non excistant. On top of it im depressed (hmm wonder why) the thought of living like this for the next 30-40 years dosent seem to appealing. I have tried doing research on food ect. I just need some advice and a magic wand to make me feel better. Does anyone have any ideas? Im on Humarria, Cymbalta and ambien for sleep. I just started back on predisone because I feel like such crap and am grasping for straws to feel better. Oh and on top of it my eyes are blood shoot and chapped (new occurrence) so I have to wear dumb glasses and but eye drops in them 2 a day. Sorry to vent but this is the only place that people seem to get it. Need some positive ideas I will try anything. HELP PLEASe

 

[summerday]

I am new to this forum but not to the disease. I just had to reply to you because I'm feeling the exact same way as you are at the moment. Its sooo depressing and it seems like it will never end. Not only do we feel crappy, we gotta pull it together and go on with daily life which does seem like a chore most days lately. Its easy to just want to give up when your in a funk.. I sure feel that way. But. Just remember and I remind myself all the time, it really could be worse. I know that's the last thing you want to hear but its true I tell myself that all the time. Have a good cry, that's what I've been doing lately and I always feel better. At the same time I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself. Sigh.. Big big hugs, we understand even if no one else does. Excuse me while I go to the bathroom now...

 

[Del]

I like to smile when I feel ****..
I always find it easy to smile when I am feeling good but not when I am feeling depressed....so I make a serious effort to consciously smile when I am feeling depressed..It is habit forming but not easy to start. I walk up stairs and never take the elevator and other then the meds that I have to take ..i stay clear of all other drugs....
It is a daily task but one that has gotten a little easier over time.
I also found a very funny picture in our local newspaper that made me laugh and cut it out and have it plastered to my bedroom wall .
Every morning when I wake I see it and it instantly puts a smile on my face first thing in the morning...
Hey...What ever works...