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I seriously can't do this again. My doctor just emailed my sed rate to me and it's up to 68. I'm going to the bathroom at least 6 times a day with bloody and nausea almost every time. My doctor is now insisting that I must to 40 mg of steroids along with a full elemental diet with my g tube. The only thing is that it's been proven that the full elemental diet DOES NOT work! I was on that ridiculous thing completely without food for 10 days after I left the hospital after my gastrostomy placement and my bleeding got worse. Tell me, how is this man's logic even sound if he thinks that this failed treatment is going to work? The only med even proven to somewhat help is steroids, and steroids alone. He also wants me to use Rowasa again, even though I can't keep them in when I'm sick anyways because the cramping is so bad. He's going off of scewed theories that have never been proven and desperation, instead of going ahead with a new treatment [aka stem cell]. I've failed on every other medicine known to man. Best yet, this guy isn't even my doctor anymore technically, I'm going to see a new one on May 31st. And yet, because my parents are hanging over my healthcare and can't seem to detach themselves since I'm newly 18, I'm stuck being guilt tripped into a prison once again that I lived in for 3 months [elemental diet] that doesn't even work! If I can be honest, and I'm going to be since you guys can actually somewhat understand what I'm going through right now, this sucks, is not fair, and doesn't make sense. I'm tired of doctors and parents throwing the "now you don't want a colostomy" card in my face to scare me. Guess what? They haven't tried stem cell yet. I read an article that said that 80% of all the people who've done it when into complete remission. Those numbers speak for themselves. All I want to do right now is scream, even though I know it's not going to do a single thing. I'm going out with friends tonight too, so it's time to put on my game face and forget about this for tonight because I am NOT, I repeat NOT going to cry in front of these people because they're new friends who I don't know all that well and this is supposed to be a fun night going to see a midnight premiere of a new movie. And, instead, all I want to do is go crawl up in a ball in my closet and cry. I really hate cruel irony.
So, half of that probably didn't make much sense, heck some days it doesn't to me. But, for those who of you who took the time to read it, thank-you from the bottom of my heart.
So, half of that probably didn't make much sense, heck some days it doesn't to me. But, for those who of you who took the time to read it, thank-you from the bottom of my heart.