But don't worry about me, goofy. I don't intend to stop codeine completely. If I did want to do that, I'd just ask my GP to stop my prescriptions. You can't buy codeine here, you can only get it if you have a doctor's prescription (well, you can buy codeine in very small doses that also contain paracetamol. The reason for the paracetamol is that it makes you sick if you take too much, so you can't take any more than the very small amount of codeine - I know, I've tried it
and I can't stand feeling nauseous, so I won't do that again!). If the GP stopped my codeine prescription, I'd go through a few days of feeling like I had bad flu, but it's not dangerous and it's not terrible - I've done it many times, voluntarily. But what I'm trying to do at the moment is cut my codeine use down, because it was getting out of hand, but not stop it.
Maybe it would help if I set myself definite limits to stick to. I have been cutting down, but when I feel bad I take more. Maybe if I set myself a specific number of pills to take, and maybe another specific number for when I feel very bad, it would be easier than just having the undefined idea of cutting down. Guess I could also ask my doctor to reduce my prescription? except I need to have control of it myself.
But anyway, codeine addiction and withdrawal are nothing compared to strong opioids, I'm sure other drug addicts would not be impressed by the amount of fuss I make about it.
And codeine withdrawal isn't dangerous, which is another critical difference. When I was in hospital, I had oxycodone - I posted about it on this thread - and the withdrawal from that was something else - and I'd only been on it for a few days!
That withdrawal was awful, and there was no way I could have done it by myself. I was begging the doctors and nurses for more.... if there'd been any way I could have got someone to sneak it into the hospital for me, I probably would have, I was that desperate for it.
A nurse told me that if you imagine a scale of the strength and withdrawal of opioids, heroin would be at the very top: the strongest effects and the most terrible withdrawal. She said oxycodone would be right up there just below heroin, though the withdrawal after just a few days of use shouldn't have been anywhere near as bad as it was for me. I think for some reason opioids just do it for me: something in my physiology just responds to them and taking them makes me feel so well, and my body just
hates it when they're taken away. And the nurse said codeine is right down at the bottom of the scale. In fact, once I was off the oxycodone, the doctors were fine with letting me have doses of codeine higher than the recommended maximum. I think they felt that, compared to oxy, codeine addiction wasn't worth worrying about.
From that experience I learned never to try another opiate: pain is better than withdrawal. But also that codeine addiction isn't terrible.