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Really struggling, no end in sight, still no answers 
Updated with answers!
I must first apologize for not being around much. The depression has started to get to me and I haven't felt I could be supportive being as depressed as I have been.
My thread title basically says it all. Almost 2 years of fighting to find out the issue, and still no answers. My GI doc insists it's just IBS..It seems as though she just isn't listening to me. All she is focused on is the bloating and pain I get. Not the fact that I have mucus in my stool or the fact that though I can't see the blood, I can smell it. My food isn't digesting properly ( I can usually pick out supper from the night before in the toilet bowl). But it's "just IBS" apparently. I had a CT scan done on my small intestine on the 7th, but won't have answers until the 28th when I see her again. If nothing shows up on that, she is "done" with me because it's "obviously" not my digestive tract. I seriously don't know what to do. I have more bad days now, than good days with pain.
It's so hard to explain to people that I am sick. Honestly sick, but because I don't look like it it gets brushed off. Like when my mom-in-law asked my husband why I don't work. He explained it to her but of course my sis in law who has endometriosis works, so what is my problem? Hmm I don't know many employers that will allow you to just disappear to run to the closest available bathroom, randomly throughout a shift. Or having pain in my tummy that is so bad I can hardly stand somedays, nevermind actually working.
I try to put on a happy smile and look ok, but inside I am breaking down and having a harder and harder time dealing with everything. My husband bitching about me leaving bubbles in the sink after doing dishes. Well ****, I did the damn dishes, and it got to the point that I had to sit down, it just hurt. Just fricking rinse the sink instead of bitching I am trying to do my best and starting to feel I am failing A couple weeks ago I lost my temper and freaked the hell out, and what is the first question i get asked "have you been taking your pills?" Yes I have, and they aren't helping!!!!!!!!!!
Updated with answers!I must first apologize for not being around much. The depression has started to get to me and I haven't felt I could be supportive being as depressed as I have been.
My thread title basically says it all. Almost 2 years of fighting to find out the issue, and still no answers. My GI doc insists it's just IBS..It seems as though she just isn't listening to me. All she is focused on is the bloating and pain I get. Not the fact that I have mucus in my stool or the fact that though I can't see the blood, I can smell it. My food isn't digesting properly ( I can usually pick out supper from the night before in the toilet bowl). But it's "just IBS" apparently. I had a CT scan done on my small intestine on the 7th, but won't have answers until the 28th when I see her again. If nothing shows up on that, she is "done" with me because it's "obviously" not my digestive tract. I seriously don't know what to do. I have more bad days now, than good days with pain.
It's so hard to explain to people that I am sick. Honestly sick, but because I don't look like it it gets brushed off. Like when my mom-in-law asked my husband why I don't work. He explained it to her but of course my sis in law who has endometriosis works, so what is my problem? Hmm I don't know many employers that will allow you to just disappear to run to the closest available bathroom, randomly throughout a shift. Or having pain in my tummy that is so bad I can hardly stand somedays, nevermind actually working.
I try to put on a happy smile and look ok, but inside I am breaking down and having a harder and harder time dealing with everything. My husband bitching about me leaving bubbles in the sink after doing dishes. Well ****, I did the damn dishes, and it got to the point that I had to sit down, it just hurt. Just fricking rinse the sink instead of bitching
I am trying to do my best and starting to feel I am failing A couple weeks ago I lost my temper and freaked the hell out, and what is the first question i get asked "have you been taking your pills?" Yes I have, and they aren't helping!!!!!!!!!!
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