My 5th infusion is coming up, I honestly feel no better now than before I started, actually worse, because I'm eating more, and my bowel is noW my master :-( I'm taking azathioprine alongside infliximab which should help, but honestly medication never works for me like it should, tried basically all I could get my hands on and 10 years after I was diagnosed, I'm worse off now. Makes me wonder what's the f*cking point, I don't sleep because of the meds I take, up all the time thinking and thinking, I try to rest I'm up going to the toilet, lost touch with family and friends over this sh*tty disease pardon the pun, I'm alone most of the time, I'm thin and suffer from depression(severe) it's a sad thing to say but the only person who'd realise anything had happend to me would be my gastro nurse when I didn't show up to an appointment, my family never even phone/visit me, isolation is a b*tch.