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Hi all,
I've been a lurker for years but usually find the info I need which I have greatly appreciated. This time I'm in over my head, or had it up to my butt, or something! Needing advice, support, whatever I can get.
I'm 36 and have had Crohns since I was about 25. Nothing is ever normal or easy about my body. It took a long time to diagnose because one symptom I've never had is weight loss. Quite the opposite, I'm overweight and no amount of diet or exercise helped. I have a very high pain tolerance but once I reach it, its basically out of control. I also have a very high drug tolerance and low doses of anything are like sugar pills. My GI doctor is very well respected but also very conservative. When I was 30 I got appendicitis and they also had to remove 13 inches of colon. My CD wasn't under control even though we thought it was.
Fast forward to now. We still thought my CD was under control as I'm basically asymptomatic. Or, if I have pain I can't feel it. I haven't been on CD meds in years.
So, one Sunday I woke up and went to work for some overtime. I only made it 2 hours because of fever, chills, lethargy and of all random things my "tailbone" hurt. This continued all week and add in I couldn't urinate on demand anymore. (48-60 ounces of water at work and no potty success until 5-6pm at night. This can't be good). Plus my rear started leaking mucous. A lot. I started using canasa suppositories thinking my CD was acting up. My tailbone and now right butt cheek hurt. A lot. Made it to chiropractor Friday and they said my sacroiliac joint out and bulging disc above it. Next week I was at chiro almost every day. Pain getting worse not better. Went to my doctor for potty problems and she had a fit. Apparently that same spinal area houses nerves to bladder and bowel and sciatica. Who knew? I didn't relate not peeing to my tailbone hurting. Lab work showed kidneys already having problems. So, by the next Friday I was in the ER to get MRI and hopefully a shot in the spine. Dr did MRI and read results. Said L4-5 was herniated and referred me to neurosurgeon for more help. Got vicodin which I told them didn't work for me. Ugh. He did cursory look at my back, with panties still on. Soonest I could get into referred neurosurgeon was next Thursday. At that point I had missed several days of work because I couldnt sit at my desk. My DR told me not to go back until I saw NS. Thursday finally came & dad drove me to appt. NS knew right off this wasn't just a herniated disc. He said it is herniated but very minor. He did visual exam and saw red inflamed area on right butt nearly the size of his hand and told me I had an abscess and needed to go to ER ASAP. So off we went.
The ER resulted in surgery to drain and put in a seton and a 16 day hospital stay. He told me later it was a plugged anal duct that was the size of a grapefruit! They drained 400ml from it! Truly the biggest he'd seen and he didn't know how I was even functioning when I came in. They called in a GI doctor who put me on imuran right away and Remicade once the antibiotics were stopped. They had an antibiotic specialist too as they didn't want me to get sick in hospital. That first seton hurt something fierce. It was big and protruding past my cheeks so it was impossible to get comfortable. I was also straight diarrhea so GI did a colonoscopy and said it was one of the most inflamed colons he'd seen in a while. Great, prior to surgery I had no real symptoms. He said I'm the kind of patient that needs aggressive ongoing treatment, such as Remicade, as we can't rely on my body to tell me when it is in a flare. I have since switched DRs to him. Another surgery was done a few days before I left hospital to put in smaller drain. For a couple weeks that felt better.
Out of hospital for 3 weeks almost now. Slowly improving and getting strength back but still basically bed ridden. Still in pull ups with a liner although fiber has slowed things down. I have a BM about every other day but fairly soft. Then lots of pain and runny stuff for about a day afterward. Its a vicious cycle. Plus I have no control over surgical site being held open with the seton. Ugh. Percocet was doing ok as my pain improved. If the pain is severe its not enough, not even a double dose. This past week pain increasing daily and now seeing a little red on TP from wound area.
To make this more of a mess I'm now 10 days late for my 2nd Remicade infusion because the pharmacy has been difficult every step of the way. If I'm lucky I might get it Friday. I see the surgeon tomorrow to discuss a surgery date for my next smaller seton.
I wonder if this increasing pain is due to Remicade wearing off? I'm so tired of pain. I should be getting better not worse. The pain meds aren't even phasing it now. It's like it was in the beginning, almost.
Sorry this is so long but its been a heck of a journey to get to this point. The mental anguish of all this has been almost as bad as the physical. I'm at the end of my rope and don't know what to do next. Today it was a pity party and tears but that didn't fix anything.
Any advice or encouragement appreciated.
Thanks,
Jen
I've been a lurker for years but usually find the info I need which I have greatly appreciated. This time I'm in over my head, or had it up to my butt, or something! Needing advice, support, whatever I can get.
I'm 36 and have had Crohns since I was about 25. Nothing is ever normal or easy about my body. It took a long time to diagnose because one symptom I've never had is weight loss. Quite the opposite, I'm overweight and no amount of diet or exercise helped. I have a very high pain tolerance but once I reach it, its basically out of control. I also have a very high drug tolerance and low doses of anything are like sugar pills. My GI doctor is very well respected but also very conservative. When I was 30 I got appendicitis and they also had to remove 13 inches of colon. My CD wasn't under control even though we thought it was.
Fast forward to now. We still thought my CD was under control as I'm basically asymptomatic. Or, if I have pain I can't feel it. I haven't been on CD meds in years.
So, one Sunday I woke up and went to work for some overtime. I only made it 2 hours because of fever, chills, lethargy and of all random things my "tailbone" hurt. This continued all week and add in I couldn't urinate on demand anymore. (48-60 ounces of water at work and no potty success until 5-6pm at night. This can't be good). Plus my rear started leaking mucous. A lot. I started using canasa suppositories thinking my CD was acting up. My tailbone and now right butt cheek hurt. A lot. Made it to chiropractor Friday and they said my sacroiliac joint out and bulging disc above it. Next week I was at chiro almost every day. Pain getting worse not better. Went to my doctor for potty problems and she had a fit. Apparently that same spinal area houses nerves to bladder and bowel and sciatica. Who knew? I didn't relate not peeing to my tailbone hurting. Lab work showed kidneys already having problems. So, by the next Friday I was in the ER to get MRI and hopefully a shot in the spine. Dr did MRI and read results. Said L4-5 was herniated and referred me to neurosurgeon for more help. Got vicodin which I told them didn't work for me. Ugh. He did cursory look at my back, with panties still on. Soonest I could get into referred neurosurgeon was next Thursday. At that point I had missed several days of work because I couldnt sit at my desk. My DR told me not to go back until I saw NS. Thursday finally came & dad drove me to appt. NS knew right off this wasn't just a herniated disc. He said it is herniated but very minor. He did visual exam and saw red inflamed area on right butt nearly the size of his hand and told me I had an abscess and needed to go to ER ASAP. So off we went.
The ER resulted in surgery to drain and put in a seton and a 16 day hospital stay. He told me later it was a plugged anal duct that was the size of a grapefruit! They drained 400ml from it! Truly the biggest he'd seen and he didn't know how I was even functioning when I came in. They called in a GI doctor who put me on imuran right away and Remicade once the antibiotics were stopped. They had an antibiotic specialist too as they didn't want me to get sick in hospital. That first seton hurt something fierce. It was big and protruding past my cheeks so it was impossible to get comfortable. I was also straight diarrhea so GI did a colonoscopy and said it was one of the most inflamed colons he'd seen in a while. Great, prior to surgery I had no real symptoms. He said I'm the kind of patient that needs aggressive ongoing treatment, such as Remicade, as we can't rely on my body to tell me when it is in a flare. I have since switched DRs to him. Another surgery was done a few days before I left hospital to put in smaller drain. For a couple weeks that felt better.
Out of hospital for 3 weeks almost now. Slowly improving and getting strength back but still basically bed ridden. Still in pull ups with a liner although fiber has slowed things down. I have a BM about every other day but fairly soft. Then lots of pain and runny stuff for about a day afterward. Its a vicious cycle. Plus I have no control over surgical site being held open with the seton. Ugh. Percocet was doing ok as my pain improved. If the pain is severe its not enough, not even a double dose. This past week pain increasing daily and now seeing a little red on TP from wound area.
To make this more of a mess I'm now 10 days late for my 2nd Remicade infusion because the pharmacy has been difficult every step of the way. If I'm lucky I might get it Friday. I see the surgeon tomorrow to discuss a surgery date for my next smaller seton.
I wonder if this increasing pain is due to Remicade wearing off? I'm so tired of pain. I should be getting better not worse. The pain meds aren't even phasing it now. It's like it was in the beginning, almost.
Sorry this is so long but its been a heck of a journey to get to this point. The mental anguish of all this has been almost as bad as the physical. I'm at the end of my rope and don't know what to do next. Today it was a pity party and tears but that didn't fix anything.
Any advice or encouragement appreciated.
Thanks,
Jen