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- Apr 15, 2013
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I know this may not be the proper place to post this concern, but I'm scared, and I'm angry. People don't understand what it's like to deal with the things that we have to deal with, ad it's frustrating when people think that it's all in our head, or we are being over dramatic cuz really, how bad can it hurt to have an upset stomach... I don't want to have surgery because I have heard that it will only open a flood gate to more surgeries, but at the same time, I'm hopeful that it would help and give me a decent remission for a fairly significant amount of time. I just fear that if I do get surgery, i will lose my kids, and my fiancé, and our house and everything because I won't be able to work, and she is going to be giving birth right around the time I would be having surgery. Even as it is now, I wasn't able to get remicade and my symptoms are getting progressively worse and I feel like I won't be able to handle my job for too much longer because I hurt so bad and have to leave my crew so I can go poop every 20 minutes. I'm so stressed, and so so scared.. I sorry to unload this on everyone, but its hard to keep this bottled up. I wish I had a friend or family member that understood at least a little bit..