Hi, everyone! I hope everyone is doing well! I haven't been very active lately because I've been dealing with a lot of different issues - mainly mental health issues - but I'm doing better so I thought it was time for an update.
I saw a new GI doctor and my new rheumatologist on Dec 19th and both appointments were horrible. The new GI was incredibly dismissive and rude. My PCP sent me to a new one so I could get some advice on how to handle my IBS but this woman works in the same office as my old GI (the one I was seeing the first time I posted here) and he treated me like a dog (he must have moved offices because I saw him in a different location). She asked me why I was back when I had all the testing done and there was nothing she could do for me. I explained that I already had a diagnosis and wasn't looking for further tests but my symptoms were worsening and I needed help. She gave me a prescription for a brand new medication which I later found out was not covered at all by my HMO - even with a prior authorization. During that morning, I was having really bad nausea and was close to vomiting several times but I pushed myself to go to that appointment so I could, hopefully, get some answers but it left me feeling even worse. When I left there, I felt emotional and at the end of my rope. I was tired of being dismissed by doctors when I had real symptoms. I wasn't asking for the royal treatment - just to be heard.
Anyway, I called my mom to vent and then went home to lay down because the rheumatology visit wasn't until the afternoon. By the time I had to get up, I was still feeling poorly but, again, I was hoping that the lab work would provide answers or that my rheumatologist would prescribe a course of action. Again, I left feeling defeated because 2 lab tests were missing (they were never completed by the lab company) and she wanted to repeat the urinalysis. I was so emotional that I went out to my car and sobbed. I called my mom again but I couldn't talk because I couldn't stop crying. She asked me if I was thinking about hurting myself and I said "yes," because I was, indeed, feeling suicidal.
The next day, I was admitted to the behavioral health unit of the hospital (voluntarily) at the request of my psychiatrist as she was leaving for Christmas and was worried that I would be unstable and wouldn't be able to help me. I was given two new medications which helped TREMENDOUSLY including a mood stabilizer and, a few weeks later, started intensive outpatient therapy which I am still in. It was the best thing I ever did and my mental health is still improving and I hope to be back to baseline very soon. I was so tired of feeling gloomy and hopeless. Now that my mental health is improving, I am in a much better place to take care of my physical health.
That said, I saw a brand new GI doctor this Wednesday and asked my mom to accompany me because, since what happened at the last one, I was nervous. I shouldn't have been because he was WONDERFUL! Even though I told him I have been diagnosed with IBS since 2004 or 2005, he didn't want to just accept that diagnosis and decided he'd rather do an upper GI endoscopy and colonoscopy on the same day with a pediatric scope so he could visualize as much as possible and then use a capsule endoscopy to scan the rest. I was amazed how nice he was! He was concerned about just letting it go as IBS since my symptoms were worsening and my dad has ulcerative colitis so "better safe than sorry." He also ordered bloodwork for IBD.
Tomorrow, I see my rheumatologist for the follow up and, while I am nervous, I am also happy to see that my blood work has come back so everything is in order. I am almost certain that my MTX will be discontinued because every specific antibody test is normal and I don't feel it's making any difference anyway. I'm not sure if she'll stop the Plaquenil, too, but she did mention getting me off the MTX. My new GI wants me off it if it's not helping my symptoms because it can worsen other organ symptoms like the liver and kidneys. The rheumy discussed putting me on a medication specifically for fibromyalgia since that's what I struggle with most and she mentioned Lyrica. If it will help, I'm all for trying it. I have already tried Cymbalta and Effexor in the past and SNRIs just don't seem to help but Lyrica is in a different class so it works differently.
All in all, I'm doing much better than I was a few months ago.