I'm constantly reminded of her. I cried when I heard of her passing and keep her passing as a reminder to myself and others (in and outside of this forum) to never let even the smallest symptom go unchecked and to never just "live with it." I spoke to Bev on Facebook when she first went to the hospital and she told me that she waited to have some things checked out and I wished her the best and kept her company as did many others on the forum. She was never alone, I know that.
Her passing is the main reason why I almost left the forum because I realized that this is a huge possibility when you're dealing with everyone on the forum suffering from a potentially deadly illness. I asked myself if I was strong enough to keep taking hits of people I've grown close to dying on the forum. My first thought was no but after having some time to think and grieve, I decided that there are still a lot of people out there that need help and support. I came on this forum while in remission, not because I had questions or needed help, but because I was looking for other people like me, who understand me and what I've gone through. I found a place full of different people with unfortunate common ground. Bev was a wonderful person and helped me realize how strong we all are to keep coming here even though the possibility of death is always there.
There are other people who left the forum without much of a word to everyone else and I really do hope that they are all doing well. I hope everyone on here gets well and stays well.
