Getting pain medication has been very hard for me as well. My GI doesn't have a triplicate prescription pad, so he's unable to give me anything stronger than tylenol 3's, which are a joke when I'm in a flare. My GP is the same way. He got rid of his triplicate after a patient stole a pad of them and ruined it for the rest of us. I need percocet for my pain. That's it, end of discussion. I'm not a drug addict, I don't abuse them when I get them, and I've always gotten them legally. I get treated like the scum of the earth when I ask for them, and I think that's ********. When someone has a well documented, legitimately painful, chronic illness, they should be able to live as pain free as possible. And if narcotics are the only thing that can help them acheive that, so be it.
I recently saw a different GP, who gave me 40 percocet for the time being, but made me feel like **** for asking. He said he would "help me out" and "do me a favour" but "only this once" and he's "not the percocet guy." Ok. I get it. Sorry for having crohn's and being in pain EVERY SINGLE DAY.
When the day comes that I can't get any painkillers, and if I still really need them, I won't hesistate to get them illegally. Judge me if you want, but I refuse to live my life curled up in a ball crying, or in the hospital. I can function perfectly on percocet. I can drive, carry on an intelligent conversation, work, everything. I'm more of a mess when I don't take them, if I'm in pain. I do have almost pain-free days, and on those days I don't take them. My diarrhea comes back, and my joints kill me a little bit, but I only take them when I really need them.
I've tried to find a doctor who will prescribe them to me on an as-needed basis, but it's impossible. You have to be physically in front of a doctor to ask him. I haven't found one yet, but I hope you can. I know how it feels to be in pain with nothing to take it away. And to be treated like a bag of crap because you need painkillers. I see you live in canada though. If your pain get's really bad, go to the ER. That's what I do if I have no painkillers, or if the pain gets too bad that they don't work. I'm sorry I can't help you more. All I can really say is I know exactly how you feel, and it sucks.