No, shoeless, you aren't alone. holding it in for me is a definite no no. The pains get worse... which makes sense. Holding it in simply puts more strain on the old GI tract. Now, maybe i'm crazy (ok, no maybe about it) but in order for me to try to put what's going on inside me into perspective... so I can understand it, relate to it, (WARNING.. REALLY GROSS DESCRIPTION TO FOLLOW) I visualize or picture in my mind.. that one of my arms is severely sun burnt... all red, full of oversized blisters... you know, raw, painfull, really gross!
I then imagine that it represents a portion of my colon, only inside out. then I picture what it would feel like if anyone, anything touched my arm. then it is an easy transition to imagine the skin on my arm as the inside of my colon with all the food being squeezed thru it... that explains to my simple mind the pains, and the reason not to try to hold things in, or not to eat things that I shouldn't
Yeah, I know it's gross to imagine, to visualize that, but it works for me to keep things in perspective, to understand the pain, to know why I should follow my diet... all of that. And if I get tempted to take chances, to let things slide, etc.. Then I just picture my arm cut off at the elbow. Talk about a wake up call!!!!