Feeling really quite low

[christye]

Hey,just really feeling very down at the minute,gradualy more and more so. Im at the start of a flare up at the moment, went to the docs and have been given a weeks worth of prednisilone as i have an appointment with my consultation on monday (3rd). I just feel completely not myself and completely ovewhelemed by crohns itself. When i was diagnosed last year (november) it was such a relief and i have been in remission for 10 months or so,i think ive been niave and silly and didnt actualy think it would eva come back. I feel defeated. I know there are people who are more worse off than me in countless ways but im truley finding things hard. After being thrown out of uni for poor attendnce, through me not turning up (fear im guna shit myself in a lecture) then not long after having my worst flare up yet, i havnt had a job since i was 18 (im 23 now) I feel worthless, and the worry of gettin a job alone makes me panic, what if im ill when i start working? what will i say? Should i tell them i have crohns? will that not be a disadvatage? Is there in system or help in place to help people who have crohns etc to get work?
apologise for a complete rammble of self pitty,any advice would be appreciated?

 

[AshleyElaine87]

Hey! I am in the same situation! I have not been kicked out of college, yet, but I am a month behind in my studies, and not sure I can actually catch up. I don't have D, but I do get sick and spend a lot of time in the bathroom. I know people think I have an eating disorder, but I don't have the patience to explain it to them.

I know in the states we have a disability office at our schools, is there something like that at your uni? I know you don't have to disclose a disability at work either, but again, not sure how it is where you live. I would try and get over the flare and than worry about work and school. I know that's hard, and if you're anything like me, you just want to feel normal!

 

[Grumbletum]

Hey Christye
Sorry to hear you are feeling down :-( But I hear where you are coming from. Like you, I was so relieved to have a diagnosis at last I think I didn't really take in the fact that Crohns is a chronic disease and that getting into remission can be quite a battle.
Have you checked out the NACC website? They have lots of good info including on your rights re : work etc.
I just started a new job and I told them at interview about the CD as I was expecting to go for surgery. I now have to travel for Infliximab infusions but I'm part-time so can make up the hours.
The stress won't be doing you any good either, hun. Might be worth giving your local CAB office a ring.

 

[mercy7889]

hey christie-i feel you. i had surgery three months ago and spent those three months in the hospital. it was a horrible flare. i have been also feeling depressed. worthless. incapable of doing anything. i also feel really weak. i just got home a couple weeks ago and all i have is anxiety to just feel better. i just want to feel like my old self again before i had the flare. but it all takes time and a lot of patience-which sometimes we don't have. sometimes i cry because i wish i was like everyone else my age (22)-going out, having fun, going to school and working. but deep inside i know it will all get better. all i can say is you are definitely not alone. relax. go to your doctor. get on the right meds, but most importantly know what you can and cannot eat to avoid discomfort. good luck. be brave. be strong.

 

[SandyM]

Hi Christye,

I find crohns can suck all the life and motivation out of you. One step at a time and you will feel good again and be able to do most of the things you enjoy with the right meds and diet. I got put on prednisilone when first diagnosed. Boy I recall eating everything in sight whilst on those and they seemed to calm things down. The right job will come along i'm sure for you. I wouldnt tell them about your chrohns unless they ask. Hopefully you will get something soon and the worry will ease which should help your crohns also.

Take care and good luck! Chin up