afidz
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First, I want to apologize for ghosting. The truth is, I was in a huge downward spiral. I was fighting against my mental health on top of my physical health and everything was overwhelming. I spent so much time helping people prior, I felt like nothing I was telling other people mattered if I wasn’t listening to my own advice. I didn’t feel like I was in the right place to be able to help anyone.
So. Where have I been?
For those who joined before my hiatus, you’ll remember that I fought endlessly to repair a hernia. Every surgeon turned their back on me, leaving me in worse condition than I was before. This kept happening over and over again. I fell into a really deep depression, but like all of you I hid it. I gained a massive amount of weight. My weight complicated the hernia repair even more because all of my organs vacated my abdominal cavity. I had what was called a loss of domain. My abdominal cavity was shrinking because there was nothing in it except fat. It made the repair next to impossible given my surgical history, and it made it very dangerous because my organs wouldn’t fit in the smaller space.
I don’t remember how much I’ve shared here, but I was really really sick. It was my darkest times. In 2016 I found a surgeon at Cleveland Clinic who’s passion is to restore quality of life for people like me. I got to losing weight, I pulled myself out of the depression and I started working towards improving my health enough to have the next surgery. It took 2 years. I had surgery in October 2018 and (obviously) survived it and am still intact to this day.
There’s so much more to this story than I’m telling, I don’t want to bore anyone with the details. However, I am still recovering from the surgery. My body went through an incredible amount of stress over 11 years. It is going to be a long time to reverse the damage that was done. You don’t realize how important your abdominal wall is until you don’t have one, almost none of my bones are in the correct place. It’s been really painful trying to convince muscles to move the correct way so that my bones will go back to the right place. Anyway, I am in physical therapy now. I’ve been going to the gym. I’m working really hard to get my life back. I’m hoping to start spending more time in here
Talk soon
And on a random note, I feel like I should change my name on here
afidz was a play on my first and maiden name. Should I change it to represent my married name? 
(Jk Jenn. I’m not going to change it 
)
So. Where have I been?
For those who joined before my hiatus, you’ll remember that I fought endlessly to repair a hernia. Every surgeon turned their back on me, leaving me in worse condition than I was before. This kept happening over and over again. I fell into a really deep depression, but like all of you I hid it. I gained a massive amount of weight. My weight complicated the hernia repair even more because all of my organs vacated my abdominal cavity. I had what was called a loss of domain. My abdominal cavity was shrinking because there was nothing in it except fat. It made the repair next to impossible given my surgical history, and it made it very dangerous because my organs wouldn’t fit in the smaller space.
I don’t remember how much I’ve shared here, but I was really really sick. It was my darkest times. In 2016 I found a surgeon at Cleveland Clinic who’s passion is to restore quality of life for people like me. I got to losing weight, I pulled myself out of the depression and I started working towards improving my health enough to have the next surgery. It took 2 years. I had surgery in October 2018 and (obviously) survived it and am still intact to this day.
There’s so much more to this story than I’m telling, I don’t want to bore anyone with the details. However, I am still recovering from the surgery. My body went through an incredible amount of stress over 11 years. It is going to be a long time to reverse the damage that was done. You don’t realize how important your abdominal wall is until you don’t have one, almost none of my bones are in the correct place. It’s been really painful trying to convince muscles to move the correct way so that my bones will go back to the right place. Anyway, I am in physical therapy now. I’ve been going to the gym. I’m working really hard to get my life back. I’m hoping to start spending more time in here
Talk soonAnd on a random note, I feel like I should change my name on here
afidz was a play on my first and maiden name. Should I change it to represent my married name? (Jk Jenn. I’m not going to change it )
