Just venting here.
I’ve been diagnosed with Crohn’s for 6 years. I’ve had two resections and I am pretty sure after 2 years since my last surgery and removing my ileocecal valve, that I am stuck with diarrhea for the rest of my life. Not just diarrhea, but burning fire shit-water all day long, every single day the moment after I eat. Lomotil doesn’t help, miralax doesn’t help, Imodium doesn’t help, Metamucil doesn’t help, and it does not matter what I eat. And my dr won’t prescribe questran because “it’s a cholesterol medication” and won’t even address the possibility that I am having bile malabsorption (which it is). I’m so tired of pooping. It never ends. I don’t want to eat anymore. I am a solo mom to an eleven year old who has no contact with his father. I quit my job to go back to school but depression and anxiety over this life is ruining me and taking away my sons only parent. I wanted to be married. Who in their right fucking mind would pick to spend their life with someone who shits 20x/day? I’m going to be alone forever and my son will never have a family besides his sick, tired mother. I don’t want this life.
I’ve been diagnosed with Crohn’s for 6 years. I’ve had two resections and I am pretty sure after 2 years since my last surgery and removing my ileocecal valve, that I am stuck with diarrhea for the rest of my life. Not just diarrhea, but burning fire shit-water all day long, every single day the moment after I eat. Lomotil doesn’t help, miralax doesn’t help, Imodium doesn’t help, Metamucil doesn’t help, and it does not matter what I eat. And my dr won’t prescribe questran because “it’s a cholesterol medication” and won’t even address the possibility that I am having bile malabsorption (which it is). I’m so tired of pooping. It never ends. I don’t want to eat anymore. I am a solo mom to an eleven year old who has no contact with his father. I quit my job to go back to school but depression and anxiety over this life is ruining me and taking away my sons only parent. I wanted to be married. Who in their right fucking mind would pick to spend their life with someone who shits 20x/day? I’m going to be alone forever and my son will never have a family besides his sick, tired mother. I don’t want this life.