Hi there.
I don't think you all need to read my story, we all have IBD. We all know the lifestyle.
I just wanted to know if anyone else experiences the mental trauma that IBD can bring. I've had mine since I was a little girl, right at the developmental age. Over the past decade plus, it's been hitting me harder all the depression that I've developed.
Over the years I went through two mental break downs, one in highschool when I had to be hospitalized for the first time for my IBD. Another when I was finishing College. Now I have a full blown career and lately my thoughts have been chipping away at me.
I used to have horrible self esteem. I had always hated how I looked sick and healthy. I've gotten over those issues as an adult, my mind wanders into other territories. Mind you, I'm a young adult.
A year ago, I had a colon cancer scare and I was ready to die, I wasn't going to cause my family and friends any pain. Turned out to be nothing but scar tissue and a flare up of the disease.
My Crohn's isn't even that bad. I've never had surgery or had to have a stoma. I've been on several medications, and my disease is actually under control now and has been for almost a year.
Now it's just these thoughts and feelings that I carry around.
I know that I'll never be normal, that's not the part that bothers me.
A lot of the times, I feel trapped because of everything. I feel sorry for myself, and feeling sorry for myself just makes me angry at myself. So many other people have so many other issues way worse than mine.
I also have moments where I refuse to admit I'm depressed, I don't need to add some silly happy pills to my medicine list.
All I need is some help from people who I hope can understand.
Is it possible for IBD to traumatize a child?
I'm just so tired of all the people my age -- so fake, complaining about getting their nails done, calling me out when I don't want to go clubbing with them. But at the same time, everyone assumes because I'm young and seem healthy that I act like a "typical" shallow young adult.
I feel lost and trapped, like nothing matters in my life and everything seems so superficial.
I need advice or help.
Thanks.
I don't think you all need to read my story, we all have IBD. We all know the lifestyle.
I just wanted to know if anyone else experiences the mental trauma that IBD can bring. I've had mine since I was a little girl, right at the developmental age. Over the past decade plus, it's been hitting me harder all the depression that I've developed.
Over the years I went through two mental break downs, one in highschool when I had to be hospitalized for the first time for my IBD. Another when I was finishing College. Now I have a full blown career and lately my thoughts have been chipping away at me.
I used to have horrible self esteem. I had always hated how I looked sick and healthy. I've gotten over those issues as an adult, my mind wanders into other territories. Mind you, I'm a young adult.
A year ago, I had a colon cancer scare and I was ready to die, I wasn't going to cause my family and friends any pain. Turned out to be nothing but scar tissue and a flare up of the disease.
My Crohn's isn't even that bad. I've never had surgery or had to have a stoma. I've been on several medications, and my disease is actually under control now and has been for almost a year.
Now it's just these thoughts and feelings that I carry around.
I know that I'll never be normal, that's not the part that bothers me.
A lot of the times, I feel trapped because of everything. I feel sorry for myself, and feeling sorry for myself just makes me angry at myself. So many other people have so many other issues way worse than mine.
I also have moments where I refuse to admit I'm depressed, I don't need to add some silly happy pills to my medicine list.
All I need is some help from people who I hope can understand.
Is it possible for IBD to traumatize a child?
I'm just so tired of all the people my age -- so fake, complaining about getting their nails done, calling me out when I don't want to go clubbing with them. But at the same time, everyone assumes because I'm young and seem healthy that I act like a "typical" shallow young adult.
I feel lost and trapped, like nothing matters in my life and everything seems so superficial.
I need advice or help.
Thanks.
