Hi! I don't even know where to begin. I'll start at the beginning, 9 1/2 years ago when I had my gallbladder removed due to gal stones. I had just had my first baby and at the ripe old age of 28, nothing has ever been the same. They said there would be no side affects. Since then I have had no control of my bowels especially after eating.
I have painful diarrhea probably 5-10 times a day and sometimes there is just no warning. No pain, no gurgle - and then its all over me. I've had plenty of times at my office job where it's coming out before I reach the restroom.
But for the first 6 years, and two more babies, I dealt with it. I quickly changed my life. No more riding in cars with people, watching what I ate, carrying wipes, extra pants, hiding my issues. But then I had my first public accident while on vacation with my family. I was at a gas station. My husband was inside using the restroom and I was outside with all 3 young children strapped in the car when it hit. I couldn't leave the babies in strapped in the car unintended. I was trying to free the to take them inside and then it hit. All over the place. I ran. It spread. So embarrassing! The worst was the kids. They were horrified and crying.
Since then - 4 more public-ish accidents on vacations and one local but I don't think anyone saw. I take a medicine everyday that helps but makes me be in a constant state of constipation, sticky mess leaking, or worse diarrhea when I let it wear off. I take immodium like it's candy when I have to go anywhere and have basically stopped eating when at restaurants.
It's changing my life. Pyschologically I'm a mess. I have sever panic attacks when not near a restroom. I try to avoid leaving the house. Quite hard with 3 little ones with busy lives. I feel like my husband couldn't possibly find me attractive.
Thankfully I work from home right now but with that coming to an end soon, I am not sure how I will go back into an office with as bad as this has become. SO here I am. They don't have forums for "people who have had their gallbladder out and can't digest food any longer".
I recently went to a gastro, had a colonoscopy to test for crohns and had bloodwork done. All clear. I just will need to live with this and try to get my head right , I guess.
I have painful diarrhea probably 5-10 times a day and sometimes there is just no warning. No pain, no gurgle - and then its all over me. I've had plenty of times at my office job where it's coming out before I reach the restroom.
But for the first 6 years, and two more babies, I dealt with it. I quickly changed my life. No more riding in cars with people, watching what I ate, carrying wipes, extra pants, hiding my issues. But then I had my first public accident while on vacation with my family. I was at a gas station. My husband was inside using the restroom and I was outside with all 3 young children strapped in the car when it hit. I couldn't leave the babies in strapped in the car unintended. I was trying to free the to take them inside and then it hit. All over the place. I ran. It spread. So embarrassing! The worst was the kids. They were horrified and crying.
Since then - 4 more public-ish accidents on vacations and one local but I don't think anyone saw. I take a medicine everyday that helps but makes me be in a constant state of constipation, sticky mess leaking, or worse diarrhea when I let it wear off. I take immodium like it's candy when I have to go anywhere and have basically stopped eating when at restaurants.
It's changing my life. Pyschologically I'm a mess. I have sever panic attacks when not near a restroom. I try to avoid leaving the house. Quite hard with 3 little ones with busy lives. I feel like my husband couldn't possibly find me attractive.
Thankfully I work from home right now but with that coming to an end soon, I am not sure how I will go back into an office with as bad as this has become. SO here I am. They don't have forums for "people who have had their gallbladder out and can't digest food any longer".
I recently went to a gastro, had a colonoscopy to test for crohns and had bloodwork done. All clear. I just will need to live with this and try to get my head right , I guess.
