Stressed, scared, and worried :(

[ronroush7]

I had a bowel movement this morning that was near completely black, but when I wiped it was a normal brown. I assume if it was blood that when I wiped it would be black also? And I had a lot of prunes yesterday and the day before so idk if that caused it

Could have been.

 

[Aarxl180]

Had another bowel movement and it was back to normal, I guess it was the prunes. I had pain with some bowel movements yesterday and got scared that I had another fissure, had a breakdown and ended up at the counseling center at my college. The lady I saw there believes that I'm angry all of the time cuz of everything but I'm stopping it before it reaches the surface and hiding it with my anxiety

 

[Aarxl180]

Thinking about suicide again

 

[Aarxl180]

Life is so unfair

 

[Lisa]

Do you have someone to talk to? It is pretty common for people with chronic illnesses to suppress emotions......

Remember the members are here to talk to also.....

 

[Aarxl180]

I do have people to talk to but they'd get pretty upset if I told them I've calmed down a bit but I'm still very tired of all this

 

[ronroush7]

As Lisa said there are always people here you can talk to.

 

[Aarxl180]

I think my fistula closed off and another abscess is forming

 

[ronroush7]

I am sorry. Get help from your doctor soon.. Support and prayers.

 

[Aarxl180]

Yea and I think I have another fissure as well